the life and adventures of baron trenck-2-第4部分
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Pride； the justness of my cause； the unbounded confidence I had in my own resolution； and the labours of an inventive head and iron bodythese only could have preserved my life。 These bodily labours； these continued inventions； and projected plans to obtain my freedom； preserved my health。 Who would suppose that a man fettered as I was could find means of exercising himself？ By swinging my arms； acting with the upper part of my body； and leaping upwards； I frequently put myself in a strong perspiration。 After thus wearying myself I slept soundly； and often thought how many generals； obliged to support the inclemencies of weather； and all the dangers of the fieldhow many of those who had plunged me into this den of misery； would have been most glad could they； like me； have slept with a quiet conscience。 Often did I reflect how much happier I was than those tortured on the bed of sickness by gout； stone； and other terrible diseases。 How much happier was I in innocence than the malefactor doomed to suffer the pangs of death； the ignominy of men； and the horrors of internal guilt！
CHAPTER II。
In the following part of my history it will appear I often had much money concealed under the ground and in the walls of my den； yet would I have given a hundred ducats for a morsel of bread； it could not have been procured。 Money was to me useless。 In this I resembled the miser； who hoards； yet hives in wretchedness； having no joy in gentle acts of benevolence。 As proudly might I delight myself with my hidden treasure as such misers； nay； more； for I was secure from robbers。
Had fastidious pomp been my pleasure； I might have imagined myself some old field…marshal bedridden； who hears two grenadier sentinels at his door call； 〃Who goes there？〃 My honour； indeed； was still greater； for； during my last year's imprisonment； my door was guarded by no less than four。 My vanity also might have been flattered： I might hence conclude how high was the value set upon my head； since all this trouble was taken to hold me in security。 Certain it is that in my chains I thought more rationally； more nobly； reasoned more philosophically on man； his nature； his zeal； his imaginary wants； the effects of his ambition； his passions； and saw more distinctly his dream of earthly good； than those who had imprisoned； or those who guarded me。 I was void of the fears that haunt the parasite who servilely wears the fetters of a court； and daily trembles for the loss of what vice and cunning have acquired。 Those who had usurped the Sclavonian estates； and feasted sumptuously from the service of plate I had been robbed of； never ate their dainties with so sweet an appetite as I my ammunition bread； nor did their high…flavoured wines flow so limpid as my cold water。
Thus； the man who thinks； being pure of heart； will find consolation when under the most dreadful calamities； convinced； as he must be； that those apparently most are frequently least happy； insensible as they are of the pleasures they might enjoy。 Evil is never so great as it appears。
〃Sweet are the uses of adversity； Which； like the toad； ugly and venomous； Wears yet a precious jewel in his head。〃 As you LIKE IT。
Happy he who； like me； having suffered； can become an example to his suffering brethren！
YOUTH； prosperous； and imagining eternal prosperity； read my history attentively； though I should be in my grave！ Read feelingly； and bless my sleeping dust； if it has taught thee wisdom or fortitude！
FATHER； reading this； say to thy children； I felt thus like them； in blooming youth； little prophesied of misfortune； which after fell so heavy on me； and by which I am even still persecuted！ Say that I had virtue； ambition； was educated in noble principles； that I laboured with all the zeal of enthusiastic youth to become wiser； better； greater than other men； that I was guilty of no crimes； was the friend of men； was no deceiver of man or woman； that I first served my own country faithfully； and after； every other in which I found bread； that I was never； during life； once intoxicated； was no gamester； no night rambler； no contemptible idler； that yet； through envy and arbitrary power； I have fallen to misery such as none but the worst of criminals ought to feel。
BROTHER； fly those countries where the lawgiver himself knows no law； where truth and virtue are punished as crimes； and； if fly you cannot； be it your endeavour to remain unknown； unnoticed； in such countries； seek not favour or honourable employ； else will you become； when your merits are known； as I have been； the victim of slander and treachery： the behests of power will persecute you； and innocence will not shield you from the shafts of wicked men who are envious； or who wish to obtain the favour of princes； though by the worst of means。
SIRE； imagine not that thou readest a romance。 My head is grey； like thine。 Read； yet despise not the world； though it has treated me thus unthankfully。 Good men have I also found； who have befriended me in misfortunes； and there； where I had least claim； have I found them most。 May my book assist thee in noble thoughts； mayest thou die as tranquilly as I shall render up my soul to appear before the Judge of me and my persecutors。 Be death but thought a transition from motion to rest。 Few are the delights of this world for him who； like me； has learned to know it。 Murmur not； despair not of Providence。 Me； through storms； it has brought to haven； through many griefs to self…knowledge； and through prisons to philosophy。 He only can tranquilly descend to annihilation who finds reason not to repent he has once existed。 My rudder broke not amid the rocks and quicksands； but my bark was cast upon the strand of knowledge。 Yet； even on these clear shores are impenetrable clouds。 I have seen more distinctly than it is supposed men ought to see。 Age will decay the faculties； and mental； like bodily sight； must then decrease。 I even grew weary of science； and envied the blind…born； or those who； till death； have been wilfully hoodwinked。 How often have I been asked； 〃What didst thou see？〃 And when I answered with sincerity and truth； how often have I been derided as a liar； and been persecuted by those who determined not to see themselves； as an innovator singular and rash！
Sire； I further say to thee； teach thy descendants to seek the golden mean； and say with Gellert〃The boy Fritz needs nothing； his stupidity will insure his success； Examine our wealthy and titled lords； what are their abilities and honours； then inquire how they were attained； and； if thou canst； discover in what true happiness consists。〃
Once more to my prison。 The failure of my escape； and the recovery of life from this state of despair； led me to moralise deeper than I had ever done before； and in this depth of thought I found unexpected consolation and fortitude； and a firm persuasion I yet should accomplish my deliverance。
Gelfhardt； my honest grenadier； had infused fresh hope； and my mind now busily began to meditate new plans。 A sentinel was placed before my door； that I might be more narrowly watched； and the married men of the Prussian states were appointed to this duty； who； as I will hereafter show； were more easy to persuade in aiding my flight than foreign fugitives。 The Pomeranian will listen； and is by nature kind； therefore may easily be moved； and induced to succour distress。
I began to be more accustomed to my irons； which I had before found so insupportable； I could comb out my long hair； and could tie it at last with one hand。 My beard； which had so long remained unshaven； gave me a grim appearance； and I began to pluck it up by the roots。 The pain at first was considerable； especially about the lips； but this also custom conquered； and I performed this operation in the following years； once in six weeks； or two months； as the hair thus plucked up required that length of time before the nails could again get hold。 Vermin did not molest me； the dampness of my den was inimical to them。 My limbs never swelled； because of the exercise I gave myself； as before described。 The greatest pain I found was in the continued unvivifying dimness in which I lived。
I had read much； had lived in； and seen much of the world。 Vacuity of thought； therefore； I was little troubled with； the former transactions of my life； and the remembrance of the persons I had known； I revolved so often in my mind； that they became as familiar and connected as if the events had each been written in the order it occurred。 Habit made this mental exercise so perfect to me； that I could compose speeches； fables； odes； satires； all of which I repeated aloud； and had so stored my memory with them that I was enabled； after I had obtained my freedom； to commit to writing two volumes of my prison labours。 Accustomed to this exercise； days that would otherwise have been days of misery appeared but as a moment。 The following narrative will show how munch esteem； how many friends； these compositions procured me； even in my dungeon； insomuch that I obtained light； paper； and finally freedom itself。 For these I have to thank the industrious acquirements of my youth； therefore do I counsel all my readers so to employ their time。 Riches； honours； the favours of fortune； may be showered by monarchs upon the most worthless； but monarchs can give and take； say and unsay； raise and pull down。 Monarchs； however； can neither give wisdom nor virtue。 Arbitrary power itself； in the presence of these； is foiled。
How wisely has Providence ordained that the endowments of industry； learning； and science； given by ourselves； cannot be taken from us； while； on the contrary； what others bestow is a fantastical dream； from which any accident may awaken us！ The wrath of Frederic could destroy legions； and defeat armies； but it could not take from me the sense of honour； of innocence； and their sweet concomitant； peace of mindcould not deprive me of fortitude and magnanimity。 I defied his power； rested on the justice of my cause； found in myself expedients wherewith to oppose him； was at length crowned with conquest； and came forth to the world the martyr of suffering virtue。
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