03-a lost opportunity-第3部分

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free　to　go　wherever　you　please；　while　I　have　been　lying　for　years

on　the　oven。　　You　think　that　you　know　everything　and　that　I　do

not　know　anything。　　No！　you　are　still　a　child；　and　as　such　you

cannot　see　that　a　kind　of　madness　controls　your　actions　and

blinds　your　sight。　　The　sins　of　others　are　ever　before　you；　while

you　resolutely　keep　your　own　behind　your　back。　　I　know　that　what

Gavryl　did　was　wrong；　but　if　he　alone　should　do　wrong　there　would

be　no　evil　in　the　world。　　Do　you　think　that　all　the　evil　in　the

world　is　the　work　of　one　man　alone？　　No！　it　requires　two　persons

to　work　much　evil　in　the　world。　　You　see　only　the　bad　in　Gavryl's

character；　but　you　are　blind　to　the　evil　that　is　in　your　own

nature。　　If　he　alone　were　bad　and　you　good；　then　there　would　be

no　wrong。〃



The　old　man；　after　a　pause；　continued：　〃Who　tore　Gavryl's　beard？　

Who　destroyed　his　heaps　of　rye？　　Who　dragged　him　into　court？and

yet　you　try　to　put　all　the　blame　on　his　shoulders。　You　are

behaving　very　badly　yourself；　and　for　that　reason　you　are　wrong。　

I　did　not　act　in　such　a　manner；　and　certainly　I　never　taught　you

to　do　so。　　I　lived　in　peace　with　Gavryl's　father　all　the　time　we

were　neighbors。　　We　were　always　the　best　of　friends。　　If　he　was

without　flour　his　wife　would　come　to　me　and　say；　'Diadia　Frol

＇Grandfather＇；　we　need　flour。'　I　would　then　say：　'My　good　woman；

go　to　the　warehouse　and　take　as　much　as　you　want。'　　If　he　had　no

one　to　care　for　his　horses　I　would　say；　'Go；　Ivanushka

＇diminutive　of　Ivan＇；　and　help　him　to　care　for　them。'　　If　I

required　anything　I　would　go　to　him　and　say；　'Grandfather　Gordey；

I　need　this　or　that；'　and　he　would　always　reply；　'Take　just

whatever　you　want。'　　By　this　means　we　passed　an　easy　and　peaceful

life。　But　what　is　your　life　compared　with　it？　　As　the　soldiers

fought　at　Plevna；　so　are　you　and　Gavryl　fighting　all　the　time；

only　that　your　battles　are　far　more　disgraceful　than　that　fought

at　Plevna。〃



The　old　man　went　on：　〃And　you　call　this　living！　and　what　a　sin　it

all　is！　　You　are　a　peasant；　and　the　head　of　the　house；　therefore；

the　responsibility　of　the　trouble　rests　with　you。　　What　an

example　you　set　your　wife　and　children　by　constantly　quarrelling

with　your　neighbor！　　Only　a　short　time　since　your　little　boy；

Taraska；　was　cursing　his　aunt　Arina；　and　his　mother　only　laughed

at　it；　saying；　'What　a　bright　child　he　is！'　　Is　that　right？　　You

are　to　blame　for　all　this。　　You　should　think　of　the　salvation　of

your　soul。　　Is　that　the　way　to　do　it？　　You　say　one　unkind　word　to

me　and　I　will　reply　with　two。　　You　will　give　me　one　slap　in　the

face；　and　I　will　retaliate　with　two　slaps。　　No；　my　son；　Christ

did　not　teach　us　foolish　people　to　act　in　such　a　way。　　If　any　one

should　say　an　unkind　word　to　you　it　is　better　not　to　answer　at

all；　but　if　you　do　reply　do　it　kindly；　and　his　conscience　will

accuse　him；　and　he　will　regret　his　unkindness　to　you。　　This　is

the　way　Christ　taught　us　to　live。　　He　tells　us　that　if　a　person

smite　us　on　the　one　cheek　we　should　offer　unto　him　the　other。　

That　is　Christ's　command　to　us；　and　we　should　follow　it。　　You

should　therefore　subdue　your　pride。　　Am　I　not　right？〃



Ivan　remained　silent；　but　his　father's　words　had　sunk　deep　into

his　heart。



The　old　man　coughed　and　continued：　〃Do　you　think　Christ　thought

us　wicked？　　Did　he　not　die　that　we　might　be　saved？　　Now　you　think

only　of　this　earthly　life。　　Are　you　better　or　worse　for　thinking

alone　of　it？　　Are　you　better　or　worse　for　having　begun　that

Plevna　battle？　　Think　of　your　expense　at　court　and　the　time　lost

in　going　back　and　forth；　and　what　have　you　gained？　　Your　sons

have　reached　manhood；　and　are　able　now　to　work　for　you。　You　are

therefore　at　liberty　to　enjoy　life　and　be　happy。　　With　the

assistance　of　your　children　you　could　reach　a　high　state　of

prosperity。　　But　now　your　property　instead　of　increasing　is

gradually　growing　less；　and　why？　　It　is　the　result　of　your　pride。　

When　it　becomes　necessary　for　you　and　your　boys　to　go　to　the

field　to　work；　your　enemy　instead　summons　you　to　appear　at　court

or　before　some　kind　of　judicial　person。　If　you　do　not　plow　at　the

proper　time　and　sow　at　the　proper　time　mother　earth　will　not

yield　up　her　products；　and　you　and　your　children　will　be　left

destitute。　　Why　did　your　oats　fail　this　year？　　When　did　you　sow

them？　　Were　you　not　quarrelling　with　your　neighbor　instead　of

attending　to　your　work？　　You　have　just　now　returned　from　the

town；　where　you　have　been　the　means　of　having　your　neighbor

humiliated。　You　have　succeeded　in　getting　him　sentenced；　but　in

the　end　the　punishment　will　fall　on　your　own　shoulders。　　Oh！　my

child；　it　would　be　better　for　you　to　attend　to　your　work　on　the

farm　and　train　your　boys　to　become　good　farmers　and　honest　men。　

If　any　one　offend　you　forgive　him　for　Christ's　sake；　and　then

prosperity　will　smile　on　your　work　and　a　light　and　happy　feeling

will　fill　your　heart。〃



Ivan　still　remained　silent。



The　old　father　in　a　pleading　voice　continued：　〃Take　an　old　man's

advice。　　Go　and　harness　your　horse；　drive　back　to　the　court；　and

withdraw　all　these　complaints　against　your　neighbor。　　To…morrow

go　to　him；　offer　to　make　peace　in　Christ's　name；　and　invite　him

to　your　house。　　It　will　be　a　holy　day　（the　birth　of　the　Virgin

Mary）。　　Get　out　the　samovar　and　have　some　vodki；　and　over　both

forgive　and　forget　each　other's　sins；　promising　not　to　transgress

in　the　future；　and　advise　your　women　and　children　to　do　the

same。〃



Ivan　heaved　a　deep　sigh　but　felt　easier　in　his　heart；　as　he

thought：　〃The　old　man　speaks　the　truth；〃　yet　he　was　in　doubt　as

to　how　he　would　put　his　father's　advice　into　practice。



The　old　man；　surmising　his　uncertainty；　said　to　Ivan：　〃Go；

Ivanushka；　do　not　delay。　　Extinguish　the　fire　in　the　beginning；

before　it　grows　large；　for　then　it　may　be　impossible。〃



Ivan's　father　wished　to　say　more　to　him；　but　was　prevented　by　the

arrival　of　the　women；　who　came　into　the　room　chattering　like　so

many　magpies。　　They　had　already　heard　of　Gavryl's　sentence；　and

of　how　he　threatened　to　set　fire　to　Ivan's　house。　　They　found　out

all　about　it；　and　in　telling　it　to　their　neighbors　added　their

own　versions　of　the　story；　with　the　usual　exaggeration。　　Meeting

in　the　pasture…ground；　they　proceeded　to　quarrel　with　Gavryl's

women。　　They　related　how　the　latter's　daughter…in…law　had

threatened　to　secure　the　influence　of　the　manager　of　a　certain

noble's　estate　in　behalf　of　his　friend　Gavryl；　also　that　the

school…teacher　was　writing　a　petition　to　the　Czar　himself　against

Ivan；　explaining　in　detail　his　theft　of　the　perchbolt　and　partial

destruction　of　Gavryl's　gardendeclaring　that　half　of　Ivan's

land　was　to　be　given　to　them。



Ivan　listened　calmly　to　their　stories；　but　his　anger　was　soon

aroused　once　more；　when　he　abandoned　his　intention　of　making

peace　with　Gavryl。



As　Ivan　was　always　busy　about　the　household；　he　did　not　stop　to

speak　to　the　wrangling　women；　but　immediately　left　the　room；

directing　his　steps　toward　the　barn。　　Before　getting　through　with

his　work　the　sun　had　set　and　the　boys　had　returned　from　their

plowing。　　Ivan　met　them　and　asked　about　their　work；　helping　them

to　put　things　in　order　and　leaving　the　broken　horse…collar　aside

to　be　repaired。　　He　intended　to　perform　some　other　duties；　but　it

became　too　dark　and　he　was　obliged　to　leave　them　till　the　next

day。　　He　fed　the　cattle；　however；　and　opened　the　gate　that

Taraska　might　take　his　horses　to　pasture　for　the　night；　after

which　he　closed　it　again　and　went　into　the　house　for　his　supper。



By　this　time　he　had　forgotten　all　about　Gavryl　and　what　his

father　had　said　to　him。　　Yet；　just　as　he　touched　the　door…knob；

he　heard　sounds　of　quarrelling　proceeding　from　his　neighbor's

house。



〃What　do　I　want　with　that　devil？〃　shouted　Gavryl　to　some　one。　

〃He　deserves　to　be　killed！〃



Ivan　stopped　and　listened　for　a　moment；　when　he　shook　his　head

threateningly　and　entered　the　room。　　When　he　came　in；　the

apartment　was　already　lighted。　　His　daughter…in…law　was　working

with　her　loom；　while　the　old　woman　was　preparing　the　supper。　　The

eldest　son　was　twining　strings　for　his　lapti　（peasant's　shoes

made　of　strips　of　bark　from　the　linden…tree）。　　The　other　son　was

sitting　by　the　table　reading　a　book。　　The　room　presented　a

pleasant　appearance；　everything　being　in　order　and　the　inmates

apparently　gay　and　happythe　only　dark　shadow　being　that　cast

over　the　household　by　Ivan's　trouble　with　his　neighbor。



Ivan　came　in　very　cross；　and；　angrily　throwing　aside　a　cat　which

lay　sleeping　on　the　bench；　cursed　the　women　for　having　misplaced

a　pail。　　He　looked　very　sad　and　serious；　and；　seating　himself　in

a　corner　of　the　room；　proceeded　to　repair　the　horse…collar。　　He

could　not　forget　Gavryl；　howeverthe　threatening　words　he　had

used　in　the　court…room　and　those　which　Ivan　had　just　heard。



Presently　Taraska　came　in；　and　after　having　his　supper；　put　on

his　sheepskin　coat；　and；　taking　some　bread　with　him；　returned　to

watch　over　his　horses　for　the　night。　　His　eldest　brother　wished

to　accompany　him；　but　Ivan　himself　arose　and　went　with　him　as　far

as　the　porch。　　The　night　was　dark　and　cloudy　and　a　strong　wind

was　blowing；　which　produced　a　peculiar　whistling　sound　that　was

most　unpleasant　to　the　ear。　　Ivan　helped　his　son　to　mount　his

horse；　which；　followed　by　a　colt；　started　off　on　a　gallop。



Ivan　stood　for　a　few　moments　looking　around　him　and　listening　to

the　clatter　of　the　horse's　hoofs　as　Taraska　rode　down　the　village

street。　He　heard　him　meet　other　boys　on　horseback；　who　rode　quite

as　well　as　Taraska；　and　soon　all　were　lost　in　the　darkness。



Ivan　remained　standing　by　the　gate　in　a　gloomy　mood；　as　he　was

unable　to　banish　from　his　mind　the　harassing　thoughts　of　Gavryl；

which　the　latter's　menacing　words　had　inspired：　〃Something　will

burn　with　greater　fierceness　in　Ivan's　household　before　long。〃



〃He　is　so