malvina of brittany-第23部分
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slave in the time of the Pharaohs; a priest in Babylon; had clung to
the swaying ladders in the sack of Rome; had won his way into the
councils when Europe was a battlefield of contending tribes; had
climbed to power in the days of the Borgias。
To most of us; I suppose; there come at odd moments haunting
thoughts of strangely familiar; far…off things; and one wonders
whether they are memories or dreams。 We dismiss them as we grow
older and the present with its crowding interests shuts them out;
but in youth they were more persistent。 With him they appeared to
have remained; growing in reality。 His recent existence; closed
under the white sheet in the hut behind me as I read; was only one
chapter of the story; he was looking forward to the next。
He wondered; so the letter ran; whether he would have any voice in
choosing it。 In either event he was curious of the result。 What he
anticipated confidently were new opportunities; wider experience。
In what shape would these come to him?
The letter ended with a strange request。 It was that; on returning
to England; I should continue to think of him: not of the dead man
I had known; the Jewish banker; the voice familiar to me; the trick
of speech; of mannerall such being but the changing clothesbut
of the man himself; the soul of him; that would seek and perhaps
succeed in revealing itself to me。
A postscript concluded the letter; to which at the time I attached
no importance。 He had made a purchase of the hut in which he had
died。 After his removal it was to remain empty。
I folded the letter and placed it among other papers; and passing
into the hut took a farewell glance at the massive; rugged face。
The mask might have served a sculptor for the embodiment of
strength。 He gave one the feeling that having conquered death he
was sleeping。
I did what he had requested of me。 Indeed; I could not help it。 I
thought of him constantly。 That may have been the explanation of
it。
I was bicycling through Norfolk; and one afternoon; to escape a
coming thunderstorm; I knocked at the door of a lonely cottage on
the outskirts of a common。 The woman; a kindly bustling person;
asked me in; and hoping I would excuse her; as she was busy ironing;
returned to her work in another room。 I thought myself alone; and
was standing at the window watching the pouring rain。 After a
while; without knowing why; I turned。 And then I saw a child seated
on a high chair behind a table in a dark corner of the room。 A book
of pictures was open before it; but it was looking at me。 I could
hear the sound of the woman at her ironing in the other room。
Outside there was the steady thrashing of the rain。 The child was
looking at me with large; round eyes filled with a terrible pathos。
I noticed that the little body was misshapen。 It never moved; it
made no sound; but I had the feeling that out of those strangely
wistful eyes something was trying to speak to me。 Something was
forming itself before menot visible to my sight; but it was there;
in the room。 It was the man I had last looked upon as; dying; he
sat beside me in the hut below the Jungfrau。 But something had
happened to him。 Moved by instinct I went over to him and lifted
him out of his chair; and with a sob the little wizened arms closed
round my neck and he clung to me cryinga pitiful; low; wailing
cry。
Hearing his cry; the woman came back。 A comely; healthy…looking
woman。 She took him from my arms and comforted him。
〃He gets a bit sorry for himself at times;〃 she explained。 〃At
least; so I fancy。 You see; he can't run about like other children;
or do anything without getting pains。〃
〃Was it an accident?〃 I asked。
〃No;〃 she answered; 〃and his father as fine a man as you would find
in a day's march。 Just a visitation of God; as they tell me。 Sure
I don't know why。 There never was a better little lad; and clever;
too; when he's not in pain。 Draws wonderfully。〃
The storm had passed。 He grew quieter in her arms; and when I had
promised to come again and bring him a new picture…book; a little
grateful smile flickered across the drawn face; but he would not
talk。
I kept in touch with him。 Mere curiosity would have made me do
that。 He grew more normal as the years went by; and gradually the
fancy that had come to me at our first meeting faded farther into
the background。 Sometimes; using the very language of the dead
man's letter; I would talk to him; wondering if by any chance some
flash of memory would come back to him; and once or twice it seemed
to me that into the mild; pathetic eyes there came a look that I had
seen before; but it passed away; and indeed; it was difficult to
think of this sad little human oddity; with its pleading
helplessness; in connection with the strong; swift; conquering
spirit that I had watched passing away amid the silence of the
mountains。
The one thing that brought joy to him was his art。 I cannot help
thinking that; but for his health; he would have made a name for
himself。 His work was always clever and original; but it was the
work of an invalid。
〃I shall never be great;〃 he said to me once。 〃I have such
wonderful dreams; but when it comes to working them out there is
something that hampers me。 It always seems to me as if at the last
moment a hand was stretched out that clutched me by the feet。 I
long so; but I have not the strength。 It is terrible to be one of
the weaklings。〃
It clung to me; that word he had used。 For a man to know he is
weak; it sounds a paradox; but a man must be strong to know that。
And dwelling upon this; and upon his patience and his gentleness;
there came to me suddenly remembrance of that postscript; the
significance of which I had not understood。
He was a young man of about three… or four…and…twenty at the time。
His father had died; and he was living in poor lodgings in the south
of London; supporting himself and his mother by strenuous; ill…paid
work。
〃I want you to come with me for a few days' holiday;〃 I told him。
I had some difficulty in getting him to accept my help; for he was
very proud in his sensitive; apologetic way。 But I succeeded
eventually; persuading him it would be good for his work。
Physically the journey must have cost him dear; for he could never
move his body without pain; but the changing landscapes and the
strange cities more than repaid him; and when one morning I woke him
early and he saw for the first time the distant mountains clothed in
dawn; there came a new light into his eyes。
We reached the hut late in the afternoon。 I had made my
arrangements so that we should be there alone。 Our needs were
simple; and in various wanderings I had learnt to be independent。 I
did not tell him why I had brought him there; beyond the beauty and
stillness of the place。 Purposely I left him much alone there;
making ever…lengthening walks my excuse; and though he was always
glad of my return I felt that the desire was growing upon him to be
there by himself。
One evening; having climbed farther than I had intended; I lost my
way。 It was not safe in that neighbourhood to try new pathways in
the dark; and chancing upon a deserted shelter; I made myself a bed
upon the straw。
I found him seated outside the hut when I returned; and he greeted
me as if he had been expecting me just at that moment and not
before。 He guessed just what had happened; he told me; and had not
been alarmed。 During the day I found him watching me; and in the
evening; as we sat in his favourite place outside the hut; he turned
to me。
〃You think it true?〃 he said。 〃That you and I sat here years ago
and talked?〃
〃I cannot tell;〃 I answered。 〃I only know that he died here; if
there be such a thing as deaththat no one has ever lived here
since。 I doubt if the door has ever been opened till we came。〃
〃They have always been with me;〃 he continued; 〃these dreams。 But I
have always dismissed them。 They seemed so ludicrous。 Always there
came to me wealth; power; victory。 Life was so easy。〃
He laid his thin hand on mine。 A strange new look came into his
eyesa look of hope; almost of joy。
〃Do you know what it seems to me?〃 he said。 〃You will laugh
perhaps; but the thought has come to me up here that God has some
fine use for me。 Success was making me feeble。 He has given me
weakness and failure that I may learn strength。 The great thing is
to be strong。〃
SYLVIA OF THE LETTERS。
Old Ab Herrick; so most people called him。 Not that he was actually
old; the term was an expression of liking rather than any reflection
on his years。 He lived in an old…fashioned houseold…fashioned;
that is; for New Yorkon the south side of West Twentieth Street:
once upon a time; but that was long ago; quite a fashionable
quarter。 The house; together with Mrs。 Travers; had been left him
by a maiden aunt。 An 〃apartment〃 would; of course; have been more
suitable to a bachelor of simple habits; but the situation was
convenient from a journalistic point of view; and for fifteen years
Abner Herrick had lived and worked there。
Then one evening; after a three days' absence; Abner Herrick
returned to West Twentieth Street; bringing with him a little girl
wrapped up in a shawl; and a wooden box tied with a piece of cord。
He put the box on the table; and the young lady; loosening her
shawl; walked to the window and sat down facing the room。
Mrs。 Travers took the box off the table and put it on the floorit
was quite a little boxand waited。
〃This young lady;〃 explained Abner Herrick; 〃is Miss Ann Kavanagh;
daughter ofof an old friend of mine。〃
〃Oh!〃 said Mrs。 Travers; and remained still expectant。
〃Miss Kavanagh;〃 continued Abner Herrick; 〃will be staying with us
for〃 He appeared to be uncertain of the length of Miss Kavanagh's
visit。 He left the sentence unfinished and took refuge in more
pressing questions。
〃What about the bedroom on the second floor? Is it ready? Sheets
airedall that sort of thing?〃
〃It can be;〃 replied Mrs。 Travers。 The tone was suggestive of
judgment reserved。
〃I think; if you don't mind; Mrs。 Travers; that we'd like to go to
bed as soon as possible。〃 Fro