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being who could understand me; and truly it was a lucky chance
which brought you to these parts; you who seem to be acquainted
with all things strange and singular; and who are as well
acquainted with the subject of the magic touch as with all that
relates to the star Jupiter or the mysterious tree at Upsal。'
Such was the story which my host related to me in the library;
amidst the darkness; occasionally broken by flashes of lightning。
Both of us remained silent for some time after it was concluded。
'It is a singular story;' said I; at last; 'though I confess that I
was prepared for some part of it。 Will you permit me to ask you a
question?'
'Certainly;' said my host。
'Did you never speak in public?' said I。
'Never。'
'And when you made this speech of yours in the dining…room;
commencing with Mr。 Speaker; no one was present?'
'None in the world; I double…locked the door; what do you mean?'
'An idea came into my head … dear me how the rain is pouring … but;
with respect to your present troubles and anxieties; would it not
be wise; seeing that authorship causes you so much trouble and
anxiety; to give it up altogether?'
'Were you an author yourself;' replied my host; 'you would not talk
in this manner; once an author; ever an author … besides; what
could I do? return to my former state of vegetation? no; much as I
endure; I do not wish that; besides; every now and then my reason
tells me that these troubles and anxieties of mine are utterly
without; foundation that whatever I write is the legitimate growth
of my own mind; and that it is the height of folly to afflict
myself at any chance resemblance between my own thoughts and those
of other writers; such resemblance being inevitable from the fact
of our common human origin。 In short … '
'I understand you;' said I; 'notwithstanding your troubles and
anxieties you find life very tolerable; has your originality ever
been called in question?'
'On the contrary; every one declares that originality constitutes
the most remarkable feature of my writings; the man has some
faults; they say; but want of originality is certainly not one of
them。 He is quite different from others … a certain newspaper; it
is true; the … I think; once insinuated that in a certain work of
mine I had taken a hint or two from the writings of a couple of
authors which it mentioned; it happened; however; that I had never
even read one syllable of the writings of either; and of one of
them had never even heard the name; so much for the discrimination
of the …。 By the bye; what a rascally newspaper that is!'
'A very rascally newspaper;' said I。
CHAPTER LXVII
Disturbed slumbers … The bed…post … Two wizards … What can I do? …
Real library … The Rev。 Mr。 Platitude … Toleration to Dissenters …
Paradox … Sword of St。 Peter … Enemy to humbug … High principles …
False concord … The damsel … What religion? … Further conversation
… That would never do! … May you prosper。
DURING the greater part of that night my slumbers were disturbed by
strange dreams。 Amongst other things; I fancied that I was my
host; my head appeared to be teeming with wild thoughts and
imaginations; out of which I was endeavouring to frame a book。 And
now the book was finished and given to the world; and the world
shouted; and all eyes were turned upon me; and I shrank from the
eyes of the world。 And; when I got into retired places; I touched
various objects in order to baffle the evil chance。 In short;
during the whole night; I was acting over the story which I had
heard before I went to bed。
At about eight o'clock I awoke。 The storm had long since passed
away; and the morning was bright and shining; my couch was so soft
and luxurious that I felt loth to quit it; so I lay some time; my
eyes wandering about the magnificent room to which fortune had
conducted me in so singular a manner; at last I heaved a sigh; I
was thinking of my own homeless condition; and imagining where I
should find myself on the following morning。 Unwilling; however;
to indulge in melancholy thoughts; I sprang out of bed and
proceeded to dress myself; and; whilst dressing; I felt an
irresistible inclination to touch the bed…post。
I finished dressing and left the room; feeling compelled; however;
as I left it; to touch the lintel of the door。 Is it possible;
thought I; that from what I have lately heard the long…forgotten
influence should have possessed me again? but I will not give way
to it; so I hurried downstairs; resisting as I went a certain
inclination which I occasionally felt to touch the rail of the
banister。 I was presently upon the gravel walk before the house:
it was indeed a glorious morning。 I stood for some time observing
the golden fish disporting in the waters of the pond; and then
strolled about amongst the noble trees of the park; the beauty and
freshness of the morning … for the air had been considerably cooled
by the late storm … soon enabled me to cast away the gloomy ideas
which had previously taken possession of my mind; and; after a
stroll of about half an hour; I returned towards the house in high
spirits。 It is true that once I felt very much inclined to go and
touch the leaves of a flowery shrub which I saw at some distance;
and had even moved two or three paces towards it; but; bethinking
myself; I manfully resisted the temptation。 'Begone!' I exclaimed;
'ye sorceries; in which I formerly trusted … begone for ever
vagaries which I had almost forgotten; good luck is not to be
obtained; or bad averted; by magic touches; besides; two wizards in
one parish would be too much; in all conscience。'
I returned to the house; and entered the library; breakfast was
laid on the table; and my friend was standing before the portrait
which I have already said hung above the mantelpiece; so intently
was he occupied in gazing at it that he did not hear me enter; nor
was aware of my presence till I advanced close to him and spoke;
when he turned round and shook me by the hand。
'What can possibly have induced you to hang up that portrait in
your library? it is a staring likeness; it is true; but it appears
to me a wretched daub。'
'Daub as you call it;' said my friend; smiling; 'I would not part
with it for the best piece of Rafael。 For many a happy thought I
am indebted to that picture … it is my principal source of
inspiration; when my imagination flags; as of course it
occasionally does; I stare upon those features; and forthwith
strange ideas of fun and drollery begin to flow into my mind; these
I round; amplify; or combine into goodly creations; and bring forth
as I find an opportunity。 It is true that I am occasionally
tormented by the thought that; by doing this; I am committing
plagiarism; though; in that case; all thoughts must be plagiarisms;
all that we think being the result of what we hear; see; or feel。
What can I do? I must derive my thoughts from some source or
other; and; after all; it is better to plagiarise from the features
of my landlord than from the works of Butler and Cervantes。 My
works; as you are aware; are of a serio…comic character。 My
neighbours are of opinion that I am a great reader; and so I am;
but only of those features … my real library is that picture。'
'But how did you obtain it?' said I。
'Some years ago a travelling painter came into this neighbourhood;
and my jolly host; at the request of his wife; consented to sit for
his portrait; she highly admired the picture; but she soon died;
and then my fat friend; who is of an affectionate disposition; said
he could not bear the sight of it; as it put him in mind of his
poor wife。 I purchased it of him for five pounds … I would not
take five thousand for it; when you called that picture a daub; you
did not see all the poetry of it。'
We sat down to breakfast; my entertainer appeared to be in much
better spirits than on the preceding day; I did not observe him
touch once; ere breakfast was over a servant entered … 'The
Reverend Mr。 Platitude; sir;' said he。
A shade of dissatisfaction came over the countenance of my host。
'What does the silly pestilent fellow mean by coming here?' said
he; half to himself; 'let him come in;' said he to the servant。
The servant went out; and in a moment reappeared; introducing the
Reverend Mr。 Platitude。 The Reverend Mr。 Platitude; having what is
vulgarly called a game leg; came shambling into the room; he was
about thirty years of age; and about five feet three inches high;
his face was of the colour of pepper; and nearly as rugged as a
nutmeg…grater; his hair was black; with his eyes he squinted; and
grinned with his lips; which were very much apart; disclosing two
very irregular rows of teeth; he was dressed in the true Levitical
fashion; in a suit of spotless black; and a neckerchief of spotless
white。
The Reverend Mr。 Platitude advanced winking and grinning to my
entertainer; who received him politely but with evident coldness;
nothing daunted; however; the Reverend Mr。 Platitude took a seat by
the table; and; being asked to take a cup of coffee; winked;
grinned; and consented。
In company I am occasionally subject to fits of what is generally
called absence; my mind takes flight and returns to former scenes;
or presses forward into the future。 One of these fits of absence
came over me at this time … I looked at the Reverend Mr。 Platitude
for a moment; heard a word or two that proceeded from his mouth;
and saying to myself; 'You are no man for me;' fell into a fit of
musing … into the same train of thought as in the morning; no very
pleasant one … I was thinking of the future。
I continued in my reverie for some time; and prob