hard cash-第25部分
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he started up in bed and cried aloud; 〃David!Julia!Oh; what is the matter?〃 The sound of her own voice dispelled the cloud in part; but not entirely。 She lay awhile; and then finding herself quite averse to sleep; rose and went to her window; and eyed the weather anxiously。 It was a fine night; soft fleecy clouds drifted slowly across a silver moon。 The sailor's wife was reassured on her husband's behalf。 Her next desire was to look at Julia sleeping; she had no particular object: it was the instinctive impulse of an anxious mother whom something had terrified。 She put on her slippers and dressing…gown; and; lighting a candle at her night…lamp; opened her door softly and stepped into the little corridor。 But she had not taken two steps when she was arrested by a mysterious sound。
It came from Julia's room。
What was it?
Mrs。 Dodd glided softly nearer and nearer; all her senses on the stretch。
The sound came again。 It was a muffled sob。
The stifled sound; just audible in the dead stillness of the night; went through and through her who stood there listening aghast。 Her bowels yearned over her child; and she hurried to the door; but recollected herself; and knocked; very gently。 〃Don't be alarmed; love; it is only me。 May I come in?〃 She did not wait for the answer; but turned the handle and entered。 She found Julia sitting up in bed; looking wildly at her; with cheeks flushed and wet。 She sat on the bed and clasped her to her breast in silence: but more than one warm tear ran down upon Julia's bare neck; the girl felt them drop; and her own gushed in a shower。
〃Oh; what have I done?〃 she sobbed。 〃Am I to make you wretched too?〃
Mrs。 Dodd did not immediately reply。 She was there to console; and her admirable good sense told her that to do that she must be calmer than her patient; so even while she kissed and wept over Julia; she managed gradually to recover her composure。 〃Tell me; my child;〃 said she; 〃why do you act a part with me? Why brave it out under my eye; and spend the night secretly in tears? Are you still afraid to trust me?〃
〃Oh no; no; but I thought I was so strong; so proud: I undertook miracles。 I soon found my pride was a molehill and my love a mountain。 I could not hold out by day if I did not ease my breaking heart at night。 How unfortunate! I kept my head under the bed…clothes; too; but you have such ears。 I thought I would stifle my grief; or else perhaps you would be as wretched as I am: forgive me pray forgive me!〃
〃On one condition;〃 said Mrs。 Dodd; struggling with the emotion these simple words caused her。
〃Anything to be forgiven;〃 cried Julia; impetuously。 〃I'll go to London。 I'll go to Botany Bay。 I deserve to be hanged。〃
〃Then; from this hour; no half…confidences between us。 Dear me; you carry in your own bosom a much harsher judge; a much less indulgent friend; than I am。 Come! trust me with your heart。 Do you love him very much? Does your happiness depend on him?〃
At this point…blank question Julia put her head over Mrs。 Dodd's shoulder; not to be seen; and; clasping her tight; murmured scarce above a whisper; 〃I don't know how much I love him。 When he came in at that party I felt his slavehis unfaithful adoring slave; if he had ordered me to sing Aileen Aroon; I should have obeyed; if he had commanded me to take his hand and leave the room; I think I should have obeyed。 His face is always before me as plain as life; it used to come to me bright and loving; now it is pale; and stern; and sad。 I was not so wretched till I saw he was pining for me; and thinks me inconstantoh; mamma; so pale! so shrunk I so reckless! He was sorry for misbehaving that night: he changed clothes with a beggar to kiss my dress; poor thing! poor thing! Who ever loved as he does me! I am dying for him; I am dying。〃
〃There! there!〃 said Mrs。 Dodd soothingly。 〃You have said enough。 This must be love。 I am on your Alfred's side from this hour。〃
Julia opened her eyes; and was a good deal agitated as well as surprised。 〃Pray do not raise my hopes;〃 she gasped。 〃We are parted for ever。 His father refuses。 Even you seemed averse; or have I been dreaming?〃
〃Me; dearest? How can I be averse to anything lawful on which I find your heart is really set; and your happiness at stake? Of course I have stopped the actual intercourse; under existing circumstances; but these circumstances are not unalterable: your only obstacle is Mr。 Richard Hardie。〃
But what an obstacle!〃 sighed Julia。 〃His father! a man of iron! so everybody says; for I have made inquiriesoh!〃 And she was abashed。 She resumed hastily; 〃And that letter; so cold; so cruel! I feel it was written by one not open to gentle influences。 He does not think me worthy of his son so accomplished; so distinguished at the very university where our poor Edwardhasyou know〃
〃Little simpleton!〃 said Mrs。 Dodd; and kissed her tenderly; 〃your iron man is the commonest clay; sordid; pliable; and your stem heroic Brutus is a shopkeeper: he is open to the gentle influences which sway the kindred souls of the men you and I buy our shoes; our tea; our gloves; our fish…kettles of: and these influences I think I command; and am prepared to use them to the utmost。〃
Julia lay silent; and wondering what she could mean。
But Mrs。 Dodd hesitated now: it pained and revolted her to show her enthusiastic girl the world as it is。 She said as much; and added 〃I seem to be going to aid all these people to take the bloom from my own child's innocence。 Heaven help me!〃
〃Oh; never mind that;〃 cried Julia in her ardent way; 〃give me Truth before Error; however pleasing。〃
Mrs。 Dodd replied only by a sigh: grand general sentiments like that never penetrated her mind: they glided off like water from a duck's back。 〃We will begin with this mercantile Brutus; then;〃 said she; with such a curl of the lip。 Brutus had rejected her daughter。
〃Mr。 Richard Hardie was born and bred in a bank; one where no wild thyme blows; my poor enthusiast; nor cowslips nor the nodding violet grows; but gold and silver chink; and Things are discounted; and men grow rich; slowly but surely; by lawful use of other people's money。 Breathed upon by these 'gentle influences;' he was; from his youth; a remarkable man measured by Trade's standard。 At five…and…twenty divine what he did! He saved the bank。 You have read of bubbles: the Mississippi Bubble and the South Sea Bubble。 Well; in the year 1825; it was not one bubble but a thousand; mines by the score; and in distant lands; companies by the hundred; loans to every nation or tribe; down to Guatemala; Patagonia; and Greece; two hundred new ships were laid on the stocks in one year; for your dear papa told me; in short; a fever of speculation; and the whole nation raging with it: my dear; Princes; Dukes; Duchesses; Bishops; Poets; Lawyers; Physicians; were seen struggling with their own footmen for a place in the Exchange: and; at last; good; steady; old Mr。 Hardie; Alfred's grandfather; was drawn into the vortex。 Now; to excuse him and appreciate the precocious Richard; you must try and realise that these bubbles; when they rise; are as alluring and reasonable as they are ridiculous and incredible when one looks back on them; even soap bubbles; you know; have rainbow hues till they burst: and; indeed; the blind avarice of men does but resemble the blind vanity of women: look at our grandmothers' hoops; and our mothers' short waists and monstrous heads! Yet in their day what woman did not glory in these insanities? Well then; Mr。 Richard Hardie; at twenty…five; was the one to foresee the end of all these bubbles; he came down from London and brought his people to their senses by sober reason and 'sound commercial principles'that means; I believe; 'get other people's money; but do not risk your own。' His superiority was so clear; that his father resigned the helm to him; and; thanks to his ability; the bank weathered the storm; while all the other ones in the town broke or suspended their trade。 Now; you know; youth is naturally ardent and speculative; but Richard Hardie's was colder and wiser than other people's old age: and that is one trait。 Some years later; in the height of his prosperityI reveal this only for your comfort; and on your sacred promise as a person of delicacy; never to repeat it to a soulRichard Hardie was a suitor for my hand。〃
〃Mamma!〃
〃Do not ejaculate; sweetest。 It discomposes me。 'Nothing is extraordinary;' as that good creature Dr。 Sampson says。 He must have thought it would _answer;_ in one way or another; to have a gentlewoman at the head of his table; and I was not penniless; _bien entendu。_ Failing in this; he found a plain little Thing; with a gloomy temper; and no accomplishments nor graces; but her father could settle twenty thousand pounds。 He married her directly: and that is a trait。 He sold his father's and grandfather's house and place of business; in spite of all their associations; and obtained a lease of his present place from my uncle Fountain: it seemed a more money…making situation。 A trait。 He gives me no reason for rejecting my daughter。 Why? because he is not proud of his reasons: this walking Avarice has intelligence: a trait。 Now put all this together; and who more transparent than the profound Mr。 Hardie? He has declined our alliance because he takes for granted we are poor。 When I undeceive him on that head he will reopen _negotiations_ in a letterNo。 2 of the correspondence; copied by one of his clerksit will be calm; plausible; flattering: in short; it will be done like a gentleman: though he is nothing of the kind。 And this brings me to what I ought to have begun with: your dear father and I have always lived with our income for our children's sake; he is bringing home the bulk of our savings this very voyage; and it amounts to fourteen thousand pounds。〃
〃Oh; what an enormous sum!〃
〃No; dearest; it is not a fortune in itself。 But it is a considerable sum to possess; independent of one's settlement and one's income。 It is loose cash; to speak _a la_ Hardie; that means I can do what I choose with it and of course I chooseto make you happy。 How I shall work on what you call Iron and I venture to call Clay must be guided by circumstances。 I think of depositing three or four thousand po