the diary of an old soul(一颗衰老灵魂的日记)-第6部分
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foregrasp； A thing beyond all conscious hungering； Beyond all hope that
makes the poet sing。 It takes the clinging world； undoes its clasp； Floats it
afar upon a mighty sea； And leaves us quiet with love and liberty and thee。
6。
Through all the fog； through all earth's wintery sighs； I scent Thy
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spring； I feel the eternal air； Warm； soft； and dewy； filled with flowery
eyes； And gentle； murmuring motions everywhere Of life in heart； and
tree； and brook； and moss； Thy breath wakes beauty； love； and bliss； and
prayer； And strength to hang with nails upon thy cross。
7。
If thou hadst closed my life in seed and husk； And cast me into soft；
warm； damp； dark mould； All unaware of light come through the dusk； I
yet should feel the split of each shelly fold； Should feel the growing of my
prisoned heart； And dully dream of being slow unrolled； And in some
other vagueness taking part。
8。
And little as the world I should foreknow Up into which I was about to
rise Its rains； its radiance； airs； and warmth； and skies； How it would
greet me； how its wind would blow As little； it may be； I do know the
good Which I for years half darkling have pursued The second birth for
which my nature cries。
9。
The life that knows not； patient waits； nor longs： I know； and would
be patient； yet would long。 I can be patient for all coming songs； But let
me sing my one monotonous song。 To me the time is slow my mould
among； To quicker life I fain would spur and start The aching growth at
my dull…swelling heart。
10。
Christ is the pledge that I shall one day see； That one day； still with
him； I shall awake； And know my God； at one with him and free。 O lordly
essence； come to life in me； The will…throb let me feel that doth me make；
Now have I many a mighty hope in thee； Then shall I rest although the
universe should quake。
11。
Haste to me； Lord； when this fool…heart of mine Begins to gnaw itself
with selfish craving； Or； like a foul thing scarcely worth the saving； Swoln
up with wrath； desireth vengeance fine。 Haste； Lord； to help； when reason
favours wrong； Haste when thy soul； the high…born thing divine； Is torn by
passion's raving； maniac throng。
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12。
Fair freshness of the God…breathed spirit air； Pass through my soul；
and make it strong to love； Wither with gracious cold what demons dare
Shoot from my hell into my world above； Let them drop down； like leaves
the sun doth sear； And flutter far into the inane and bare； Leaving my
middle…earth calm； wise； and clear。
13。
Even thou canst give me neither thought nor thing； Were it the
priceless pearl hid in the land； Which； if I fix thereon a greedy gaze；
Becomes not poison that doth burn and cling； Their own bad look my
foolish eyes doth daze； They see the gift； see not the giving hand 》From
the living root the apple dead I wring。
14。
This versing； even the reading of the tale That brings my heart its joy
unspeakable； Sometimes will softly； unsuspectedly hale That heart from
thee； and all its pulses quell。 Discovery's pride； joy's bliss； take aback my
sail； And sweep me from thy presence and my grace； Because my eyes
dropped from the master's face。
15。
Afresh I seek thee。 Lead meonce more I pray Even should it be
against my will； thy way。 Let me not feel thee foreign any hour； Or shrink
from thee as an estranged power。 Through doubt； through faith； through
bliss； through stark dismay； Through sunshine； wind； or snow； or fog； or
shower； Draw me to thee who art my only day。
16。
I would go near theebut I cannot press Into thy presenceit helps not
to presume。 Thy doors are deeds； the handles are their doing。 He whose
day…life is obedient righteousness； Who； after failure； or a poor success；
Rises up； stronger effort yet renewing He finds thee； Lord； at length； in
his own common room。
17。
Lord； thou hast carried me through this evening's duty； I am released；
weary； and well content。 O soul； put on the evening dress of beauty； Thy
sunset…flush； of gold and purple blent！ Alas； the moment I turn to my
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heart； Feeling runs out of doors； or stands apart！ But such as I am； Lord；
take me as thou art。
18。
The word he then did speak； fits now as then； For the same kind of
men doth mock at it。 God…fools； God…drunkards these do call the men Who
think the poverty of their all not fit； Borne humbly by their art； their voice；
their pen； Save for its allness； at thy feet to fling； For whom all is unfit that
is not everything。
19。
O Christ； my life； possess me utterly。 Take me and make a little Christ
of me。 If I am anything but thy father's son； 'Tis something not yet from
the darkness won。 Oh； give me light to live with open eyes。 Oh； give me
life to hope above all skies。 Give me thy spirit to haunt the Father with my
cries。
20。
'Tis hard for man to rouse his spirit up It is the human creative agony；
Though but to hold the heart an empty cup； Or tighten on the team the
rigid rein。 Many will rather lie among the slain Than creep through narrow
ways the light to gain Than wake the will； and be born bitterly。
21。
But he who would be born again indeed； Must wake his soul
unnumbered times a day； And urge himself to life with holy greed； Now
ope his bosom to the Wind's free play； And now； with patience forceful；
hard； lie still； Submiss and ready to the making will； Athirst and empty； for
God's breath to fill。
22。
All times are thine whose will is our remede。 Man turns to thee； thou
hast not turned away； The look he casts； thy labour that did breed It is
thy work； thy business all the day： That look； not foregone fitness； thou
dost heed。 For duty absolute how be fitter than now？ Or learn by
shunning？Lord； I come； help thou。
23。
Ever above my coldness and my doubt Rises up something； reaching
forth a hand： This thing I know； but cannot understand。 Is it the God in me
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that rises out Beyond my self； trailing it up with him； Towards the spirit…
home； the freedom…land； Beyond my conscious ken； my near horizon's
brim？
24。
O God of man； my heart would worship all My fellow men； the flashes
from thy fire； Them in good sooth my lofty kindred call； Born of the same
one heart； the perfect sire； Love of my kind alone can set me free； Help me
to welcome all that come to me； Not close my doors and dream solitude
liberty！
25。
A loving word may set some door ajar Where seemed no door； and that
may enter in Which lay at the heart of that same loving word。 In my still
chamber dwell thou always； Lord； Thy presence there will carriage true
afford； True words will flow； pure of design to win； And to my men my
door shall have no bar。
26。
My prayers； my God； flow from what I am not； I think thy answers
make me what I am。 Like weary waves thought follows upon thought； But
the still depth beneath is all thine own； And there thou mov'st in paths to
us unknown。 Out of strange strife thy peace is strangely wrought； If the
lion in us praythou answerest the lamb。
27。
So bound in selfishness am I； so chained； I know it must be glorious to
be free But know not what； full…fraught； the word doth mean。 By loss on
loss I have severely gained Wisdom enough my slavery to see； But liberty；
pure； absolute； serene； No fre 雜 t…visioned slave has ever seen。
28。
For； that great freedom how should such as I Be able to imagine in
such a self？ Less hopeless far the miser man might try To image the
delight of friend…shared pelf。 Freedom is to be like thee； face and heart； To
know it； Lord； I must be as thou art； I cannot breed the imagination high。
29。
Yet hints come to me from the realm unknown； Airs drift across the
twilight border land； Odoured with life； and as from some far strand Sea…
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murmured； whispers to my heart are blown That fill me with a joy I cannot
speak； Yea； from whose shadow words drop faint and weak： Thee； God； I
shadow in that region grand。
30。
O Christ； who didst appear in Judah land； Thence by the cross go back
to God's right hand； Plain history； and things our sense beyond； In thee
together come and correspond： How rulest thou from the undiscovered
bourne The world…wise world that laughs thee still to scorn？ Please； Lord；
let thy disciple understand。
31。
'Tis heart on heart thou rulest。 Thou art the s
