the house behind the cedars(雪松后的房子)-第33部分
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son had gone away on this trip to South Carolina; he had kept no secrets
from her: his heart had been an open book; of which she knew every page;
now; some painful story was inscribed therein which he meant she should
not read。 If she could have abdicated her empire to Blanche Leary or
have shared it with her; she would have yielded gracefully; but very
palpably some other influence than Blanche's had driven joy from her
son's countenance and lightness from his heart。
Miss Blanche Leary; whom Tryon found in the house upon his return;
was a demure; pretty little blonde; with an amiable disposition; a talent for
society; and a pronounced fondness for George Tryon。 A poor girl; of an
excellent family impoverished by the war; she was distantly related to Mrs。
Tryon; had for a long time enjoyed that lady's favor; and was her choice
for George's wife when he should be old enough to marry。 A woman less
interested than Miss Leary would have perceived that there was something
wrong with Tryon。 Miss Leary had no doubt that there was a woman at
the bottom of it;for about what else should youth worry but love? or if
one's love affairs run smoothly; why should one worry about anything at
all? Miss Leary; in the nineteen years of her mundane existence; had not
been without mild experiences of the heart; and had hovered for some time
on the verge of disappointment with respect to Tryon himself。 A
sensitive pride would have driven more than one woman away at the sight
of the man of her preference sighing like a furnace for some absent fair
one。 But Mrs。 Tryon was so cordial; and insisted so strenuously upon her
remaining; that Blanche's love; which was strong; conquered her pride;
which was no more than a reasonable young woman ought to have who
sets success above mere sentiment。 She remained in the house and bided
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her opportunity。 If George practically ignored her for a time; she did not
throw herself at all in his way。 She went on a visit to some girls in the
neighborhood and remained away a week; hoping that she might be
missed。 Tryon expressed no regret at her departure and no particular
satisfaction upon her return。 If the house was duller in her absence; he
was but dimly conscious of the difference。 He was still fighting a battle
in which a susceptible heart and a reasonable mind had locked horns in a
well…nigh hopeless conflict。 Reason; common…sense; the instinctive
ready…made judgments of his training and environment; the deep…seated
prejudices of race and caste;commanded him to dismiss Rena from his
thoughts。 His stubborn heart simply would not let go。
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XXI
A GILDED OPPORTUNITY
Although the whole fabric of Rena's new life toppled and fell with
her lover's defection; her sympathies; broadened by culture and still more
by her recent emotional experience; did not shrink; as would have been the
case with a more selfish soul; to the mere limits of her personal sorrow;
great as this seemed at the moment。 She had learned to love; and when
the love of one man failed her; she turned to humanity; as a stream
obstructed in its course overflows the adjacent country。 Her early
training had not directed her thoughts to the darker people with whose fate
her own was bound up so closely; but rather away from them。 She had
been taught to despise them because they were not so white as she was;
and had been slaves while she was free。 Her life in her brother's home;
by removing her from immediate contact with them; had given her a
different point of view;one which emphasized their shortcomings; and
thereby made vastly clearer to her the gulf that separated them from the
new world in which she lived; so that when misfortune threw her back
upon them; the reaction brought her nearer than before。 Where once she
had seemed able to escape from them; they were now; it appeared; her
inalienable race。 Thus doubly equipped; she was able to view them at
once with the mental eye of an outsider and the sympathy of a sister: she
could see their faults; and judge them charitably; she knew and
appreciated their good qualities。 With her quickened intelligence she
could perceive how great was their need and how small their opportunity;
and with this illumination came the desire to contribute to their help。 She
had not the breadth or culture to see in all its ramifications the great
problem which still puzzles statesmen and philosophers; but she was
conscious of the wish; and of the power; in a small way; to do something
for the advancement of those who had just set their feet upon the ladder of
progress。
This new…born desire to be of service to her rediscovered people was
not long without an opportunity for expression。 Yet the Fates willed that
her future should be but another link in a connected chain: she was to be
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as powerless to put aside her recent past as she had been to escape from
the influence of her earlier life。 There are sordid souls that eat and drink
and breed and die; and imagine they have lived。 But Rena's life since her
great awakening had been that of the emotions; and her temperament made
of it a continuous life。 Her successive states of consciousness were not
detachable; but united to form a single if not an entirely harmonious whole。
To her sensitive spirit to…day was born of yesterday; to…morrow would be
but the offspring of to day。
One day; along toward noon; her mother received a visit from Mary B。
Pettifoot; a second cousin; who lived on Back Street; only a short distance
from the house behind the cedars。 Rena had gone out; so that the visitor
found Mis' Molly alone。
〃I heared you say; Cousin Molly;〃 said Mary B。 (no one ever knew
what the B。 in Mary's name stood for;it was a mere ornamental flourish);
〃that Rena was talkin' 'bout teachin' school。 I've got a good chance fer
her; ef she keers ter take it。 My cousin Jeff Wain 'rived in town this
mo'nin'; f'm 'way down in Sampson County; ter git a teacher fer the nigger
school in his deestric'。 I s'pose he mought 'a' got one f'm 'roun' Newbern;
er Goldsboro; er some er them places eas'; but he 'lowed he'd like to visit
some er his kin an' ole frien's; an' so kill two birds with one stone。〃
〃I seed a strange mulatter man; with a bay hoss an' a new buggy;
drivin' by here this mo'nin' early; from down to'ds the river;〃 rejoined Mis'
Molly。 〃I wonder if that wuz him?〃
〃Did he have on a linen duster?〃 asked Mary B。
〃Yas; an' 'peared to be a very well sot up man;〃 replied Mis' Molly; 〃
'bout thirty…five years old; I should reckon。〃
〃That wuz him;〃 assented Mary B。 〃He's got a fine hoss an' buggy;
an' a gol' watch an' chain; an' a big plantation; an' lots er hosses an' mules
an' cows an' hawgs。 He raise' fifty bales er cotton las' year; an' he's be'n
ter the legislatur'。〃
〃 My gracious!〃 exclaimed Mis' Molly; struck with awe at this
catalogue of the stranger's possessions he was evidently worth more than
a great many 〃rich〃 white people;all white people in North Carolina in
those days were either 〃rich〃 or 〃poor;〃 the distinction being one of caste
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rather than of wealth。 〃Is he married?〃 she inquired with interest?
〃No;single。 You mought 'low it was quare that he should n' be
married at his age; but he was crossed in love oncet;〃Mary B。 heaved a
self…conscious sigh;〃an' has stayed single ever sence。 That wuz ten
years ago; but as some husban's is long…lived; an' there ain' no mo' chance
fer 'im now than there wuz then; I reckon some nice gal mought stan' a
good show er ketchin' 'im; ef she'd play her kyards right。〃
To Mis' Molly this was news of considerable importance。 She had
not thought a great deal of Rena's plan to teach; she considered it lowering
for Rena; after having been white; to go among the negroes any more than
was unavoidable。 This opportunity; however; meant more than mere
employment for her daughter。 She had felt Rena's disappointment keenly;
from the practical point of view; and; blaming herself for it; held herself all
the more bound to retrieve the misfortune in any possible way。 If she had
not been sick; Rena would not have dreamed the fateful dream that had
brought her to Patesville; for the connection between the vision and the
reality was even closer in Mis' Molly's eyes than in Rena's。