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adopted　daughter。　She　had　already　reminded　me　of　the　bygone　day
when　a　bright　little　child　had　sat　on　my　knee　and　listened　to　the
ticking　of　my　watch。

The　Minister　gently　lifted　her　head　from　his　breast。　〃My
darling；〃　he　said；　〃you　don't　see　my　old　friend。　Love　him；　and
look　up　to　him；　Eunice。　He　will　be　your　friend；　too；　when　I　am
gone。〃

She　came　to　me　and　offered　her　cheek　to　be　kissed。　It　was　sadly
pale；　poor　souland　I　could　guess　why。　But　her　heart　was　now
full　of　her　father。　〃Do　you　think　he　is　seriously　ill？〃　she
whispered。　What　I　ought　to　have　said　I　don't　know。　Her　eyes；　the
sweetest；　truest；　loveliest　eyes　I　ever　saw　in　a　human　face；　were
pleading　with　me。　Let　my　enemies　make　the　worst　of　it；　if　they
likeI　did　certainly　lie。　And　if　I　deserved　my　punishment；　I　got
it；　the　poor　child　believed　me！　〃Now　I　am　happier；〃　she　said；
gratefully。　〃Only　to　hear　your　voice　seems　to　encourage　me。　On
our　way　here；　Selina　did　nothing　but　talk　of　you。　She　told　me　I
shouldn't　have　time　to　feel　afraid　of　the　great　man；　he　would
make　me　fond　of　him　directly。　I　said；　'Are　you　fond　of　him？'　She
said；　'Madly　in　love　with　him；　my　dear。'　My　little　friend　really
thinks　you　like　her；　and　is　very　proud　of　it　There　are　some
people　who　call　her　ugly。　I　hope　you　don't　agree　with　them？〃

I　believe　I　should　have　lied　again；　if　Mr。　Gracedieu　had　not
called　me　to　the　bedside

〃How　does　she　strike　you？〃　he　whispered；　eagerly。　〃Is　it　too　soon
to　ask　if　she　shows　her　age　in　her　face？〃

〃Neither　in　her　face　nor　her　figure；〃　I　answered：　〃it　astonishes
me　that　you　can　ever　have　doubted　it。　No　stranger；　judging　by
personal　appearance；　could　fail　to　make　the　mistake　of　thinking
Helena　the　oldest　of　the　two。〃

He　looked　fondly　at　Eunice。　〃Her　figure　seems　to　bear　out　what
you　say；〃　he　went　on。　〃Almost　childish；　isn't　it？〃

I　could　not　agree　to　that。　Slim；　supple；　simply　graceful　in　every
movement；　Eunice's　figure；　in　the　charm　of　first　youth；　only
waited　its　perfect　development。　Most　men；　looking　at　her　as　she
stood　at　the　other　end　of　the　room　with　her　back　toward　us；　would
have　guessed　her　age　to　be　sixteen。

Finding　that　I　failed　to　agree　with　him；　Mr。　Gracedieu's
misgivings　returned。　〃You　speak　very　confidently；〃　he　said；
〃considering　that　you　have　not　seen　the　girls　together。　Think
what　a　dreadful　blow　it　would　be　to　me　if　you　made　a　mistake。〃

I　declared；　with　perfect　sincerity；　that　there　was　no　fear　of　a
mistake。　The　bare　idea　of　making　the　proposed　comparison　was
hateful　to　me。　If　Helena　and　I　had　happened　to　meet　at　that
moment；　I　should　have　turned　away　from　her　by　instinctshe　would
have　disturbed　my　impressions　of　Eunice。

The　Minister　signed　to　me　to　move　a　little　nearer　to　him。　〃I　must
say　it；〃　he　whispered；　〃and　I　am　afraid　of　her　hearing　me。　Is
there　anything　in　her　face　that　reminds　you　of　her　miserable
mother？〃

I　had　hardly　patience　to　answer　the　question：　it　was　simply
preposterous。　Her　hair　was　by　many　shades　darker　than　her
mother's　hair；　her　eyes　were　of　a　different　color。　There　was　an
exquisite　tenderness　and　sincerity　in　their　expressionmade
additionally　beautiful；　to　my　mind；　by　a　gentle；　uncomplaining
sadness。　It　was　impossible　even　to　think　of　the　eyes　of　the
murderess　when　I　looked　at　her　child。　Eunice's　lower　features；
again；　had　none　of　her　mother's　regularity　of　p　roportion。　Her
smile；　simple　and　sweet；　and　soon　passing　away；　was　certainly　not
an　inherited　smile　on　the　maternal　side。　Whether　she　resembled
her　father；　I　was　unable　to　conjecturehaving　never　seen　him。
The　one　thing　certain　was；　that　not　the　faintest　trace；　in
feature　or　expression；　of　Eunice's　mother　was　to　be　seen　in
Eunice　herself。　Of　the　two　girls；　Helenajudging　by　something　in
the　color　of　her　hair；　and　by　something　in　the　shade　of　her
complexionmight　possibly　have　suggested；　in　those　particulars
only；　a　purely　accidental　resemblance　to　my　terrible　prisoner　of
past　times。

The　revival　of　Mr。　Gracedieu's　spirits　indicated　a　temporary
change　only；　and　was　already　beginning　to　pass　away。　The　eyes
which　had　looked　lovingly　at　Eunice　began　to　look　languidly　now：
his　head　sank　on　the　pillow　with　a　sigh　of　weak　content。　〃My
pleasure　has　been　almost　too　much　for　me；〃　he　said。　〃Leave　me　for
a　while　to　rest；　and　get　used　to　it。〃

Eunice　kissed　his　foreheadand　we　left　the　room。


CHAPTER　XL。

THE　BRUISED　HEART。


WHEN　we　stepped　out　on　the　landing；　I　observed　that　my　companion
paused。　She　looked　at　the　two　flights　of　stairs　below　us　before
she　descended　them。　It　occurred　to　me　that　there　must　be　somebody
in　the　house　whom　she　was　anxious　to　avoid。

Arrived　at　the　lower　hall；　she　paused　again；　and　proposed　in　a
whisper　that　we　should　go　into　the　garden。　As　we　advanced　along
the　backward　division　of　the　hall；　I　saw　her　eyes　turn
distrustfully　toward　the　door　of　the　room　in　which　Helena　had
received　me。　At　last；　my　slow　perceptions　felt　with　her　and
understood　her。　Eunice's　sensitive　nature　recoiled　from　a　chance
meeting　with　the　wretch　who　had　laid　waste　all　that　had　once　been
happy　and　hopeful　in　that　harmless　young　life。

〃Will　you　come　with　me　to　the　part　of　the　garden　that　I　am
fondest　of？〃　she　asked。

I　offered　her　my　arm。　She　led　me　in　silence　to　a　rustic　seat；
placed　under　the　shade　of　a　mulberry　tree。　I　saw　a　change　in　her
face　as　we　sat　downa　tender　and　beautiful　change。　At　that
moment　the　girl's　heart　was　far　away　from　me。　There　was　some
association　with　this　corner　of　the　garden；　on　which　I　felt　that
I　must　not　intrude。

〃I　was　once　very　happy　here；〃　she　said。　〃When　the　time　of　the
heartache　came　soon　after；　I　was　afraid　to　look　at　the　old　tree
and　the　bench　under　it。　But　that　is　all　over　now。　I　like　to
remember　the　hours　that　were　once　dear　to　me；　and　to　see　the
place　that　recalls　them。　Do　you　know　who　I　am　thinking　of？　Don't
be　afraid　of　distressing　me。　I　never　cry　now。〃

〃My　dear　child；　I　have　heard　your　sad　storybut　I　can't　trust
myself　to　speak　of　it。〃

〃Because　you　are　so　sorry　for　me？〃

〃No　words　can　say　how　sorry　I　am！〃

〃But　you　are　not　angry　with　Philip？〃

〃Not　angry！　My　poor　dear；　I　am　afraid　to　tell　you　how　angry　I　am
with　him。〃

〃Oh；　no！　You　mustn't　say　that。　If　you　wish　to　be　kind　to　meand
I　am　sure　you　do　wish　itdon't　think　bitterly　of　Philip。〃

When　I　remember　that　the　first　feeling　she　roused　in　me　was
nothing　worthier　of　a　professing　Christian　than　astonishment；　I
drop　in　my　own　estimation　to　the　level　of　a　savage。　〃Do　you
really　mean；〃　I　was　base　enough　to　ask；　〃that　you　have　forgiven
him？〃

She　said；　gently：　〃How　could　I　help　forgiving　him？〃

The　man　who　could　have　been　blessed　with　such　love　as　this；　and
who　could　have　cast　it　away　from　him；　can　have　been　nothing　but
an　idiot。　On　that　groundthough　I　dared　not　confess　it　to
EuniceI　forgave　him；　too。

〃Do　I　surprise　you？〃　she　asked　simply。　〃Perhaps　love　will　bear
any　humiliation。　Or　perhaps　I　am　only　a　poor　weak　creature。　You
don't　know　what　a　comfort　it　was　to　me　to　keep　the　few　letters
that　I　received　from　Philip。　When　I　heard　that　he　had　gone　away；
I　gave　his　letters　the　kiss　that　bade　him　good…by。　That　was　the
time；　I　think；　when　my　poor　bruised　heart　got　used　to　the　pain；　I
began　to　feel　that　there　was　one　consolation　still　left　for　meI
might　end　in　forgiving　him。　Why　do　I　tell　you　all　this？　I　think
you　must　have　bewitched　me。　Is　this　really　the　first　time　I　have
seen　you？〃

She　put　her　little　trembling　hand　into　mine；　I　lifted　it　to　my
lips；　and　kissed　it。　Sorely　was　I　tempted　to　own　that　I　had
pitied　and　loved　her　in　her　infancy。　It　was　almost　on　my　lips　to
say：　〃I　remember　you　an　easily…pleased　little　creature；　amusing
yourself　with　the　broken　toys　which　were　once　the　playthings　of
my　own　children。〃　I　believe　I　should　have　said　it；　if　I　could
have　trusted　myself　to　speak　composedly　to　her。　This　was　not　to
be　done。　Old　as　I　was；　versed　as　I　was　in　the　hard　knowledge　of
how　to　keep　the　mask　on　in　the　hour　of　need；　this　was　not　to　be
done。

Still　trying　to　understand　that　I　was　little　better　than　a
stranger　to　her；　and　still　bent　on　finding　the　secret　of　the
sympathy　that　united　us；　Eunice　put　a　strange　question　to　me。

〃When　you　were　young　yourself；〃　she　said；　〃did　you　know　what　it
was　to　love；　and　to　be　lovedand　then　to　lose　it　all？〃

It　is　not　given　to　many　men　to　marry　the　woman　who　has　been　the
object　of　their　first　love。　My　early　life　had　been　darkened　by　a
sad　story；　never　confided　to　any　living　creature；　banished
resolutely　from　my　own　thoughts。　For　forty　years　past；　that　part
of　my　buried　self　had　lain　quiet　in　its　graveand　the　chance
touch　of　an　innocent　hand　had　raised　the　dead；　and　set　us　face　to
face　again！　Did　I　know　what　it　was　to　love；　and　to　be　loved；　and
then　to　lose　it　all？　〃Too　well；　my　child；　too　well！〃

That　was　all　I　could　say　to　her。　In　the　last　days　of　my　life；　I
shrank　from　speaking　of　it。　When　I　had　first　felt　that　calamity；
and　had　felt　it　most　keenly；　I　might　have　given　an　answer
worthier　of　me；　and　worthier　of　her。

She　dropped　my　hand；　and　sat　by　me　in　silence；　thinking。　Had
Iwithout　meaning　it；　God　knows！had　I　disappointed　her？

〃Did　you　expect　me　to　tell　my　own　sad　story；〃　I　said；　〃as　frankly
and　as　trustfully　as　you　have　told　yours？〃

〃Oh；　don't　think　that！　I　know　what　an　effort　it　was　to　you　to
answer　me　at　all。　Yes；　indeed！　I　wonder　whether　I　may　ask
something。　The　sorrow　you　have　just　told　me　of　is　not　the　only
oneis　it？　You　have　had　other　troubles？〃

〃Many　of　them。〃

〃There　are　times；〃　she　went　on；　〃when　one　can't　help　thinking　of
one's　own　miserable　self。　I　try　to　be　cheerful；　but　those　times
come　now　and　then。〃

She　stopped；　and　looked　at　me　with　a　pale　fear　confessing　itself
in　her　face。

〃You　know　who　Selina　is？〃　she　resumed。　〃My　friend！　The　only
friend　I　had；　till　you　came　here。〃

I　guessed　that　she　was　speaking　of　the　quaint；　kindly　little
woman；　whose　ugly　surname　had　been　hitherto　the　only　name　known
to　me。

〃Selina　has；　I　daresay；　told　you　that　I　have　been　ill；〃　she
continued；　〃and　that　I　am　staying　in　the　country　for　the　benefit
of　my　health。〃

It　was　plain　that　she　had　something　to　say　to　me；　far　more
important　than　this；　and　that