the professor at the breakfast table-第13部分
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used to say; was swinging; to hang over the little heap of stirring
clothes; from which looked the minute; red; downy; still; round face;
with unfixed eyes and working lips;in that unearthly gravity which
has never yet been broken by a smile; and which gives to the earliest
moon…year or two of an infant's life the character of a first old
age; to counterpoise that second childhood which there is one chance
in a dozen it may reach by and by。 The boys had remembered the old
man and young father at that tender period of his hard; dry life。
There came to him a fair; silver goblet; embossed with classical
figures; and bearing on a shield the graver words; Ex dono
pupillorum。 The handle on its side showed what use the boys had
meant it for; and a kind letter in it; written with the best of
feeling; in the worst of Latin; pointed delicately to its
destination。 Out of this silver vessel; after a long; desperate;
strangling cry; which marked her first great lesson in the realities
of life; the child took the blue milk; such as poor tutors and their
children get; tempered with water; and sweetened a little; so as to
bring it nearer the standard established by the touching indulgence
and partiality of Nature;who had mingled an extra allowance of
sugar in the blameless food of the child at its mother's breast; as
compared with that of its infant brothers and sisters of the bovine
race。
But a willow will grow in baked sand wet with rainwater。 An air…
plant will grow by feeding on the winds。 Nay; those huge forests
that overspread great continents have built themselves up mainly from
the air…currents with which they are always battling。 The oak is but
a foliated atmospheric crystal deposited from the aerial ocean that
holds the future vegetable world in solution。 The storm that tears
its leaves has paid tribute to its strength; and it breasts the
tornado clad in the spoils of a hundred hurricanes。
Poor little Iris! What had she in common with the great oak in the
shadow of which we are losing sight of her?She lived and grew like
that;this was all。 The blue milk ran into her veins and filled
them with thin; pure blood。 Her skin was fair; with a faint tinge;
such as the white rosebud shows before it opens。 The doctor who had
attended her father was afraid her aunt would hardly be able to
〃raise 〃 her;〃delicate child;〃hoped she was not consumptive;
thought there was a fair chance she would take after her father。
A very forlorn…looking person; dressed in black; with a white
neckcloth; sent her a memoir of a child who died at the age of two
years and eleven months; after having fully indorsed all the
doctrines of the particular persuasion to which he not only belonged
himself; but thought it very shameful that everybody else did not
belong。 What with foreboding looks and dreary death…bed stories; it
was a wonder the child made out to live through it。 It saddened her
early years; of course;it distressed her tender soul with thoughts
which; as they cannot be fully taken in; should be sparingly used as
instruments of torture to break down the natural cheerfulness of a
healthy child; or; what is infinitely worse; to cheat a dying one out
of the kind illusions with which the Father of All has strewed its
downward path。
The child would have died; no doubt; and; if properly managed; might
have added another to the long catalogue of wasting children who have
been as cruelly played upon by spiritual physiologists; often with
the best intentions; as ever the subject of a rare disease by the
curious students of science。
Fortunately for her; however; a wise instinct had guided the late
Latin tutor in the selection of the partner of his life; and the
future mother of his child。 The deceased tutoress was a tranquil;
smooth woman; easily nourished; as such people are;a quality which
is inestimable in a tutor's wife;and so it happened that the
daughter inherited enough vitality from the mother to live through
childhood and infancy and fight her way towards womanhood; in spite
of the tendencies she derived from her other parent。
Two and two do not always make four; in this matter of hereditary
descent of qualities。 Sometimes they make three; and sometimes five。
It seems as if the parental traits at one time showed separate; at
another blended;that occasionally; the force of two natures is
represented in the derivative one by a diagonal of greater value than
either original line of living movement;that sometimes there is a
loss of vitality hardly to be accounted for; and again a forward
impulse of variable intensity in some new and unforeseen direction。
So it was with this child。 She had glanced off from her parental
probabilities at an unexpected angle。 Instead of taking to classical
learning like her father; or sliding quietly into household duties
like her mother; she broke out early in efforts that pointed in the
direction of Art。 As soon as she could hold a pencil she began to
sketch outlines of objects round her with a certain air and spirit。
Very extraordinary horses; but their legs looked as if they could
move。 Birds unknown to Audubon; yet flying; as it were; with a rush。
Men with impossible legs; which did yet seem to have a vital
connection with their most improbable bodies。 By…and…by the doctor;
on his beast;an old man with a face looking as if Time had kneaded
it like dough with his knuckles; with a rhubarb tint and flavor
pervading himself and his sorrel horse and all their appurtenances。
A dreadful old man! Be sure she did not forget those saddle…bags
that held the detestable bottles out of which he used to shake those
loathsome powders which; to virgin childish palates that find heaven
in strawberries and peaches; are Well; I suppose I had better stop。
Only she wished she was dead sometimes when she heard him coming。
On the next leaf would figure the gentleman with the black coat and
white cravat; as he looked when he came and entertained her with
stories concerning the death of various little children about her
age; to encourage her; as that wicked Mr。 Arouet said about shooting
Admiral Byng。 Then she would take her pencil; and with a few
scratches there would be the outline of a child; in which you might
notice how one sudden sweep gave the chubby cheek; and two dots
darted at the paper looked like real eyes。
By…and…by she went to school; and caricatured the schoolmaster on the
leaves of her grammars and geographies; and drew the faces of her
companions; and; from time to time; heads and figures from her fancy;
with large eyes; far apart; like those of Raffaelle's mothers and
children; sometimes with wild floating hair; and then with wings and
heads thrown back in ecstasy。 This was at about twelve years old; as
the dates of these drawings show; and; therefore; three or four years
before she came among us。 Soon after this time; the ideal figures
began to take the place of portraits and caricatures; and a new
feature appeared in her drawing…books in the form of fragments of
verse and short poems。
It was dull work; of course; for such a young girl to live with an
old spinster and go to a village school。 Her books bore testimony to
this; for there was a look of sadness in the faces she drew; and a
sense of weariness and longing for some imaginary conditions of
blessedness or other; which began to be painful。 She might have gone
through this flowering of the soul; and; casting her petals; subsided
into a sober; human berry; but for the intervention of friendly
assistance and counsel。
In the town where she lived was a lady of honorable condition;
somewhat past middle age; who was possessed of pretty ample means; of
cultivated tastes; of excellent principles; of exemplary character;
and of more than common accomplishments。 The gentleman in black
broadcloth and white neckerchief only echoed the common voice about
her; when he called her; after enjoying; beneath her hospitable roof;
an excellent cup of tea; with certain elegancies and luxuries he was。
unaccustomed to; 〃The Model of all the Virtues。〃
She deserved this title as well as almost any woman。 She did really
bristle with moral excellences。 Mention any good thing she had not
done; I should like to see you try! There was no handle of weakness
to take hold of her by; she was as unseizable; except in her
totality; as a billiard…ball; and on the broad; green; terrestrial
table; where she had been knocked about; like all of us; by the cue
of Fortune; she glanced from every human contact; and 〃caromed〃 from
one relation to another; and rebounded from the stuffed cushion of
temptation; with such exact and perfect angular movements; that the
Enemy's corps of Reporters had long given up taking notes of her
conduct; as there was no chance for their master。
What an admirable person for the patroness and directress of a
slightly self…willed child; with the lightning zigzag line of genius
running like a glittering vein through the marble whiteness of her
virgin nature! One of the lady…patroness's peculiar virtues was
calmness。 She was resolute and strenuous; but still。 You could
depend on her for every duty; she was as true as steel。 She was
kind…hearted and serviceable in all the relations of life。 She had
more sense; more knowledge; more conversation; as well as more
goodness; than all the partners you have waltzed with this winter put
together。
Yet no man was known to have loved her; or even to have offered
himself to her in marriage。 It was a great wonder。 I am very
anxious to vindicate my character as a philosopher and an observer of
Nature by accounting for this apparently extraordinary fact。
You may remember certain persons who have the misfortune of
presenting to the friends whom they meet a cold; damp hand。 There
are states of mind in which a contact of this kind has a depre