black rock-第24部分

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back　from　him；　but　still　holding　both　her　hands；　he　cried

'Not　you　shall　not　go。　　I　shall　never　let　you　go。'

She　gave　a　little　sigh　of　content；　and；　smiling　up　at　him；　said

'I　can　go　now'；　but　even　as　she　spoke　the　flush　died　from　her　face；
and　she　shuddered。

'Never！'　he　almost　shouted；　'nothing　shall　take　you　away。　　We　shall
work　here　together。'

'Ah；　if　we　could；　if　we　only　could；'　she　said　piteously。

'Why　not？'　he　demanded　fiercely。

'You　will　send　me　away。　　You　will　say　it　is　right　for　me　to　go；'
she　replied　sadly。

'Do　we　not　love　each　other？'　was　his　impatient　answer。

'Ah！　yes；　love；'　she　said；　'but　love　is　not　all。'

'No！'　cried　Craig；　'but　love　is　the　best'

'Yes！'　she　said　sadly；　'love　is　the　best；　and　it　is　for　love's　sake
we　will　do　the　best。'

'There　is　no　better　work　than　here。　　Surely　this　is　best；'　and　he
pictured　his　plans　before　her。　　She　listened　eagerly。

'Oh！　if　it　should　be　right；'　she　cried；　'I　will　do　what　you　say。
You　are　good；　you　are　wise；　you　shall　tell　me。'

She　could　not　have　recalled　him　better。　　He　stood　silent　some
moments；　then　burst　out　passionately

'Why　then　has　love　come　to　us？　　We　did　not　seek　it。　　Surely　love　is
of　God。　　Does　God　mock　us？'

He　threw　himself　into　his　chair；　pouring　out　his　words　of
passionate　protestation。　　She　listened；　smiling；　then　came　to　him
and；　touching　his　hair　as　a　mother　might　her　child's；　said

'Oh；　I　am　very　happy！　　I　was　afraid　you　would　not　care；　and　I　could
not　bear　to　go　that　way。'

'You　shall　not　go；'　he　cried　aloud；　as　if　in　pain。　　'Nothing　can
make　that　right。'

But　she　only　said；　'You　shall　tell　me　to…morrow。　　You　cannot　see
to…night；　but　you　will　see；　and　you　will　tell　me。'

He　stood　up　and；　holding　both　her　hands；　looked　long　into　her　eyes；
then　turned　abruptly　away　and　went　out。

She　stood　where　he　left　her　for　some　moments；　her　face　radiant；　and
her　hands　pressed　upon　her　heart。　　Then　she　came　toward　my　room。
She　found　me　busy　with　my　painting；　but　as　I　looked　up　and　met　her
eyes　she　flushed　slightly；　and　said

'I　quite　forgot　you。'

'So　it　appeared　to　me。'

'You　heard？'

'And　saw；'　I　replied　boldly。　　'It　would　have　been　rude　to
interrupt；　you　see。'

'Oh；　I　am　so　glad　and　thankful。'

'Yes；　it　was　rather　considerate　of　me。'

'Oh；　I　don't　mean　that；'　the　flush　deepening；　'I　am　glad　you　know。'

'I　have　known　some　time。'

'How　could　you？　　I　only　knew　to…day　myself。'

'I　have　eyes。'　　She　flushed　again。

'Do　you　mean　that　people'　she　began　anxiously。

'No；　I　am　not　〃people。〃　　I　have　eyes；　and　my　eyes　have　been
opened。'

'Opened？'

'Yes；　by　love。'

Then　I　told　her　openly　how；　weeks　ago；　I　struggled　with　my　heart
and　mastered　it；　for　I　saw　it　was　vain　to　love　her；　because　she
loved　a　better　man　who　loved　her　in　return。　　She　looked　at　me　shyly
and　said

'I　am　sorry。'

'Don't　worry；'　I　said　cheerfully。　　'I　didn't　break　my　heart；　you
know；　I　stopped　it　in　time。'

'Oh！'　she　said；　slightly　disappointed；　then　her　lips　began　to
twitch；　and　she　went　off　into　a　fit　of　hysterical　laughter。

'Forgive　me；'　she　said　humbly；　'but　you　speak　as　if　it　had　been　a
fever。'

'Fever　is　nothing　to　it；'　I　said　solemnly。　　'It　was　a　near　thing。'
At　which　she　went　off　again。　　I　was　glad　to　see　her　laugh。　　It　gave
me　time　to　recover　my　equilibrium；　and　it　relieved　her　intense
emotional　strain。　　So　I　rattled　on　some　nonsense　about　Craig　and
myself　till　I　saw　she　was　giving　no　heed；　but　thinking　her　own
thoughts：　and　what　these　were　it　was　not　hard　to　guess。

Suddenly　she　broke　in　upon　my　talk

'He　will　tell　me　that　I　must　go　from　him。'

'I　hope　he　is　no　such　fool；'　I　said　emphatically　and　somewhat
rudely；　I　fear；　for　I　confess　I　was　impatient　with　the　very
possibility　of　separation　for　these　two；　to　whom　love　meant　so
much。　　Some　people　take　this　sort　of　thing　easily　and　some　not　so
easily；　but　love　for　a　woman　like　this　comes　once　only　to　a　man；
and　then　he　carries　it　with　him　through　the　length　of　his　life；　and
warms　his　heart　with　it　in　death。　　And　when　a　man　smiles　or　sneers
at　such　love　as　this；　I　pity　him；　and　say　no　word；　for　my　speech
would　be　in　an　unknown　tongue。　　So　my　heart　was　sore　as　I　sat
looking　up　at　this　woman　who　stood　before　me；　overflowing　with　the
joy　of　her　new　love；　and　dully　conscious　of　the　coming　pain。　　But　I
soon　found　it　was　vain　to　urge　my　opinion　that　she　should　remain
and　share　the　work　and　life　of　the　man　she　loved。　　She　only
answered

'You　will　help　him　all　you　can；　for　it　will　hurt　him　to　have　me
go。'

The　quiver　in　her　voice　took　out　all　the　anger　from　my　heart；　and
before　I　knew　I　had　pledged　myself　to　do　all　I　could　to　help　him。

But　when　I　came　upon　him　that　night；　sitting　in　the　light　of　his
fire；　I　saw　he　must　be　let　alone。　　Some　battles　we　fight　side　by
side；　with　comrades　cheering　us　and　being　cheered　to　victory；　but
there　are　fights　we　may　not　share；　and　these　are　deadly　fights
where　lives　are　lost　and　won。　　So　I　could　only　lay　my　hand　upon　his
shoulder　without　a　word。　　He　looked　up　quickly；　read　my　face；　and
said；　with　a　groan

'You　know？'

'I　could　not　help　it。　　But　why　groan？'

'She　will　think　it　right　to　go；'　he　said　despairingly。

'Then　you　must　think　for　her；　you　must　bring　some　common…sense　to
bear　upon　the　question。'

'I　cannot　see　clearly　yet；'　he　said；　'the　light　will　come。'

'May　I　show　you　how　I　see　it？'　I　asked。

'Go　on；'　he　said。

For　an　hour　I　talked；　eloquently；　even　vehemently　urging　the　reason
and　right　of　my　opinion。　　She　would　be　doing　no　more　than　every
woman　does；　no　more　than　she　did　before；　her　mother…in…law　had　a
comfortable　home；　all　that　wealth　could　procure；　good　servants；　and
friends；　the　estates　could　be　managed　without　her　personal
supervision；　after　a　few　years'　work　here　they　would　go　east　for
little　Majorie's　education；　why　should　two　lives　be　broken？and　so
I　went　on。

He　listened　carefully；　even　eagerly。

'You　make　a　good　case；'　he　said；　with　a　slight　smile。　　'I　will　take
time。　　Perhaps　you　are　right。　　The　light　will　come。　　Surely　it　will
come。　　But；'　and　here　he　sprang　up　and　stretched　his　arms　to　full
length　above　his　head；　'I　am　not　sorry；　whatever　comes　I　am　not
sorry。　　It　is　great　to　have　her　love；　but　greater　to　love　her　as　I
do。　　Thank　God！　nothing　can　take　that　away。　　I　am　willing；　glad　to
suffer　for　the　joy　of　loving　her。'

Next　morning；　before　I　was　awake；　he　was　gone；　leaving　a　note　for
me：


'MY　DEAR　CONNOR；I　am　due　at　the　Landing。　　When　I　see　you　again　I
think　my　way　will　be　clear。　　Now　all　is　dark。　　At　times　I　am　a
coward；　and　often；　as　you　sometimes　kindly　inform　me；　an　ass；　but　I
hope　I　may　never　become　a　mule。

I　am　willing　to　be　led；　or　want　to　be；　at　any　rate。　　I　must　do　the
bestnot　second　bestfor　her；　for　me。　　The　best　only　is　God's
will。　　What　else　would　you　have？　　Be　good　to　her　these　days；　dear
old　fellow。Yours；　CRAIG。'


How　often　those　words　have　braced　me　he　will　never　know；　but　I　am　a
better　man　for　them：　'The　best　only　is　God's　will。　　What　else　would
you　have？'　　I　resolved　I　would　rage　and　fret　no　more；　and　that　I
would　worry　Mrs。　Mavor　with　no　more　argument　or　expostulation；　but；
as　my　friend　had　asked；　'Be　good　to　her。'


CHAPTER　XII

LOVE　IS　NOT　ALL


Those　days　when　we　were　waiting　Craig's　return　we　spent　in　the
woods　or　on　the　mountain　sides；　or　down　in　the　canyon　beside　the
stream　that　danced　down　to　meet　the　Black　Rock　river；　I　talking　and
sketching　and　reading；　and　she　listening　and　dreaming；　with　often　a
happy　smile　upon　her　face。　　But　there　were　moments　when　a　cloud　of
shuddering　fear　would　sweep　the　smile　away；　and　then　I　would　talk
of　Craig　till　the　smile　came　back　again。

But　the　woods　and　the　mountains　and　the　river　were　her　best；　her
wisest；　friends　during　those　days。　　How　sweet　the　ministry　of　the
woods　to　her！　　The　trees　were　in　their　new　summer　leaves；　fresh　and
full　of　life。　　They　swayed　and　rustled　above　us；　flinging　their
interlacing　shadows　upon　us；　and　their　swaying　and　their　rustling
soothed　and　comforted　like　the　voice　and　touch　of　a　mother。　　And
the　mountains；　too；　in　all　the　glory　of　their　varying　robes　of
blues　and　purples；　stood　calmly；　solemnly　about　us；　uplifting　our
souls　into　regions　of　rest。　　The　changing　lights　and　shadows
flitted　swiftly　over　their　rugged　fronts；　but　left　them　ever　as
before　in　their　steadfast　majesty。　　'God's　in　His　heaven。'　　What
would　you　have？　　And　ever　the　little　river　sang　its　cheerful
courage；　fearing　not　the　great　mountains　that　threatened　to　bar　its
passage　to　the　sea。　　Mrs。　Mavor　heard　the　song　and　her　courage
rose。

'We　too　shall　find　our　way；'　she　said；　and　I　believed　her。

But　through　these　days　I　could　not　make　her　out；　and　I　found　myself
studying　her　as　I　might　a　new　acquaintance。　　Years　had　fallen　from
her；　she　was　a　girl　again；　full　of　young　warm　life。　　She　was　as
sweet　as　before；　but　there　was　a　soft　shyness　over　her；　a　half…
shamed；　half…frank　consciousness　in　her　face；　a　glad　light　in　her
eyes　that　made　her　all　new　to　me。　　Her　perfect　trust　in　Craig　was
touching　to　see。

'He　will　tell　me　what　to　do；'　she　would　say；　till　I　began　to
realise　how　impossible　it　would　be　for　him　to　betray　such　trust；
and　be　anything　but　true　to　the　best。

So　much　did　I　dread　Craig's　home…coming；　that　I　sent　for　Graeme　and
old　man　Nelson；　who　was　more　and　more　Graeme's　trusted　counsellor
and　friend。　　They　were　both　highly　excited　by　the　story　I　had　to
tell；　for　I　thought　it　best　to　tell　them　all；　but　I　was　not　a
little　surprised　and　disgusted　that　they　did　not　see　the　matter　in
my　light。　　In　vain　I　protested　against　the　madness　of　allowing
anything　to　send　these　two　from　each　other。　　Graeme　summed　up　the
discussion　in　his　own　emphatic　way；　but　with　an　earnestness　in　his
words　not　usual　with　him。

'Craig　will　know　better　than　any　of　us　what　is　right　to　do；　and　he
will　do　that；　and　no　man　can　turn　him　from　it；　and；'　he　added；　'I
should　be　sorry　to　try。'

Then　my　wrath　rose；　and　I　cried

'It's　a　tremendous　shame！　　They　love　each　other。　　You　are　talking
sentimental　humbug　and　nonsense！'

'He　must　do　the　right；'　said　Nelson　in　his　deep；　quiet　voice。

'Right！　　Nonsense！　　By　what　right　d