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years。  The old man is less disposed to argue about special matters

of belief; and more ready to sympathize with spiritually minded

persons without anxious questioning as to the fold to which they

belong。  That kindly judgment which he exercises with regard to

others he will; naturally enough; apply to himself。  The caressing

tone in which the Emperor Hadrian addresses his soul is very much

like that of an old person talking with a grandchild or some other

pet:

    〃Animula; vagula; blandula;

     Hospes comesque corporis。〃



    〃Dear little; flitting; pleasing sprite;

     The body's comrade and its guest。〃



How like the language of Catullus to Lesbia's sparrow!





More and more the old man finds his pleasures in memory; as the

present becomes unreal and dreamlike; and the vista of his earthly

future narrows and closes in upon him。  At last; if he live long

enough; life comes to be little more than a gentle and peaceful

delirium of pleasing recollections。  To say; as Dante says; that

there is no greater grief than to remember past happiness in the hour

of misery is not giving the whole truth。  In the midst of the misery;

as many would call it; of extreme old age; there is often a divine

consolation in recalling the happy moments and days and years of

times long past。  So beautiful are the visions of bygone delight that

one could hardly wish them to become real; lest they should lose

their ineffable charm。  I can almost conceive of a dozing and dreamy

centenarian saying to one he loves; 〃Go; darling; go!  Spread your

wings and leave me。  So shall you enter that world of memory where

all is lovely。  I shall not hear the sound of your footsteps any

more; but you will float before me; an aerial presence。  I shall not

hear any word from your lips; but I shall have a deeper sense of your

nearness to me than speech can give。  I shall feel; in my still

solitude; as the Ancient Mariner felt when the seraph band gathered

before him:



   〃'No voice did they impart

     No voice; but oh! the silence sank

     Like music on my heart。'〃



I said that the lenient way in which the old look at the failings of

others naturally leads them to judge themselves more charitably。

They find an apology for their short…comings and wrong…doings in

another consideration。  They know very well that they are not the

same persons as the middle…aged individuals; the young men; the boys;

the children; that bore their names; and whose lives were continuous

with theirs。  Here is an old man who can remember the first time he

was allowed to go shooting。  What a remorseless young destroyer he

was; to be sure!  Wherever he saw a feather; wherever a poor little

squirrel showed his bushy tail; bang! went the old 〃king's arm;〃 and

the feathers or the fur were set flying like so much chaff。  Now that

same old man;the mortal that was called by his name and has passed

for the same person for some scores of years;is considered absurdly

sentimental by kind…hearted women; because he opens the fly…trap and

sets all its captives free;out…of…doors; of course; but the dear

souls all insisting; meanwhile; that the flies will; every one of

them; be back again in the house before the day is over。  Do you

suppose that venerable sinner expects to be rigorously called to

account for the want of feeling he showed in those early years; when

the instinct of destruction; derived from his forest…roaming

ancestors; led him to acts which he now looks upon with pain and

aversion?



〃Senex〃 has seen three generations grow up; the son repeating the

virtues and the failings of the father; the grandson showing the same

characteristics as the father and grandfather。  He knows that if such

or such a young fellow had lived to the next stage of life he would

very probably have caught up with his mother's virtues; which; like a

graft of a late fruit on an early apple or pear tree; do not ripen in

her children until late in the season。  He has seen the successive

ripening of one quality after another on the boughs of his own life;

and he finds it hard to condemn himself for faults which only needed

time to fall off and be succeeded by better fruitage。  I cannot help

thinking that the recording angel not only drops a tear upon many a

human failing; which blots it out forever; but that he hands many an

old record…book to the imp that does his bidding; and orders him to

throw that into the fire instead of the sinner for whom the little

wretch had kindled it。



〃And pitched him in after it; I hope;〃 said Number Seven; who is in

some points as much of an optimist as any one among us; in spite of

the squint in his brain;or in virtue of it; if you choose to have

it so。



〃I like Wordsworth's 'Matthew;'〃 said Number Five; 〃as well as any

picture of old age I remember。〃



〃Can you repeat it to us?〃 asked one of The Teacups。



〃I can recall two verses of it;〃 said Number Five; and she recited

the two following ones。  Number Five has a very sweet voice。  The

moment she speaks all the faces turn toward her。  I don't know what

its secret is; but it is a voice that makes friends of everybody。



   〃'The sighs which Matthew heaved were sighs

     Of one tired out with fun and madness;

     The tears which came to Matthew's eyes

     Were tears of light; the dew of gladness。



   〃'Yet; sometimes; when the secret cup

     Of still and serious thought went round;

     It seemed as if he drank it up;

     He felt with spirit so profound:'



〃This was the way in which Wordsworth paid his tribute to a



   〃'Soul of God's best earthly mould。'〃



The sweet voice left a trance…like silence after it; which may have

lasted twenty heart…beats。  Then I said; We all thank you for your

charming quotation。  How much more wholesome a picture of humanity

than such stuff as the author of the 〃Night Thoughts〃 has left us:



    〃Heaven's Sovereign saves all beings but Himself

     That hideous sight; a naked human heart。〃



Or the author of 〃Don Juan;〃 telling us to look into



    〃Man's heart; and view the hell that's there! 〃



I hope I am quoting correctly; but I am more of a scholar in

Wordsworth than in Byron。  Was Parson Young's own heart such a

hideous spectacle to himself?



If it was; he had better have stripped off his surplice。  No;it was

nothing but the cant of his calling。  In Byron it was a mood; and he

might have said just the opposite thing the next day; as he did in

his two descriptions of the Venus de' Medici。  That picture of old

Matthew abides in the memory; and makes one think better of his kind。

What nobler tasks has the poet than to exalt the idea of manhood; and

to make the world we live in more beautiful?



We have two or three young people with us who stand a fair chance of

furnishing us the element without which life and tea…tables alike are

wanting in interest。  We are all; of course; watching them; and

curious to know whether we are to have a romance or not。  Here is one

of them; others will show themselves presently。



I cannot say just how old the Tutor is; but I do not detect a gray

hair in his head。  My sight is not so good as it was; however; and he

may have turned the sharp corner of thirty; and even have left it a

year or two behind him。  More probably he is still in the twenties;

say twenty…eight or twenty…nine。  He seems young; at any rate;

excitable; enthusiastic; imaginative; but at the same time reserved。

I am afraid that he is a poet。  When I say 〃I am afraid;〃 you wonder

what I mean by the expression。  I may take another opportunity to

explain and justify it; I will only say now that I consider the Muse

the most dangerous of sirens to a young man who has his way to make

in the world。  Now this young man; the Tutor; has; I believe; a

future before him。  He was born for a philosopher;so I read his

horoscope;but he has a great liking for poetry and can write well

in verse。  We have had a number of poems offered for our

entertainment; which I have commonly been requested to read。  There

has been some little mystery about their authorship; but it is

evident that they are not all from the same hand。  Poetry is as

contagious as measles; and if a single case of it break out in any

social circle; or in a school; there are certain to be a number of

similar cases; some slight; some serious; and now and then one so

malignant that the subject of it should be put on a spare diet of

stationery; say from two to three penfuls of ink and a half sheet of

notepaper per diem。  If any of our poetical contributions are

presentable; the reader shall have a chance to see them。



It must be understood that our company is not invariably made up of

the same persons。  The Mistress; as we call her; is expected to be

always in her place。  I make it a rule to be present。  The Professor

is almost as sure to be at the table as I am。  We should hardly know

what to do without Number Five。  It takes a good deal of tact to

handle such a little assembly as ours; which is a republic on a small

scale; for all that they give me the title of Dictator; and Number

Five is a great help in every social emergency。  She sees when a

discussion tends to become personal; and heads off the threatening

antagonists。  She knows when a subject has been knocking about long

enough and dexterously shifts the talk to another track。  It is true

that I am the one most frequently appealed to as the highest tribunal

in doubtful cases; but I often care more for Number Five's opinion

than I do for my own。  Who is this Number Five; so fascinating; so

wise; so full of knowledge; and so ready to learn?  She is suspected

of being the anonymous author of a book which produced a sensation

when published; not very long ago; and which those who read are very

apt to read a second time; and to leave on their tables for frequent

reference。  But we have never aske

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