in the cage-第14部分
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lower pleasures。 There were even no materials for it。 The odd
thing was how she never doubted that; properly handled; his passion
was poisonable; what had happened was that he had cannily selected
a partner with no poison to distil。 She read then and there that
she should never interest herself in anybody as to whom some other
sentiment; some superior view; wouldn't be sure to interfere for
him with jealousy。 〃And what did you get out of that?〃 he asked
with a concern that was not in the least for his honour。
〃Nothing but a good chance to promise him I wouldn't forsake him。
He's one of my customers。〃
〃Then it's for him not to forsake YOU。〃
〃Well; he won't。 It's all right。 But I must just keep on as long
as he may want me。〃
〃Want you to sit with him in the Park?〃
〃He may want me for thatbut I shan't。 I rather liked it; but
once; under the circumstances; is enough。 I can do better for him
in another manner。〃
〃And what manner; pray?〃
〃Well; elsewhere。〃
〃Elsewhere?I SAY!〃
This was an ejaculation used also by Captain Everard; but oh with
what a different sound! 〃You needn't 'say'there's nothing to be
said。 And yet you ought perhaps to know。〃
〃Certainly I ought。 But WHATup to now?〃
〃Why exactly what I told him。 That I'd do anything for him。〃
〃What do you mean by 'anything'?〃
〃Everything。〃
Mr。 Mudge's immediate comment on this statement was to draw from
his pocket a crumpled paper containing the remains of half a pound
of 〃sundries。〃 These sundries had figured conspicuously in his
prospective sketch of their tour; but it was only at the end of
three days that they had defined themselves unmistakeably as
chocolate…creams。 〃Have another?THAT one;〃 he said。 She had
another; but not the one he indicated; and then he continued:
〃What took place afterwards?〃
〃Afterwards?〃
〃What did you do when you had told him you'd do everything?〃
〃I simply came away。〃
〃Out of the Park?〃
〃Yes; leaving him there。 I didn't let him follow me。〃
〃Then what did you let him do?〃
〃I didn't let him do anything。〃
Mr。 Mudge considered an instant。 〃Then what did you go there for?〃
His tone was even slightly critical。
〃I didn't quite know at the time。 It was simply to be with him; I
supposejust once。 He's in danger; and I wanted him to know I
know it。 It makes meeting himat Cocker's; since it's that I want
to stay on formore interesting。〃
〃It makes it mighty interesting for ME!〃 Mr。 Mudge freely declared。
〃Yet he didn't follow you?〃 he asked。 〃I would!〃
〃Yes; of course。 That was the way you began; you know。 You're
awfully inferior to him。〃
〃Well; my dear; you're not inferior to anybody。 You've got a
cheek! What's he in danger of?〃
〃Of being found out。 He's in love with a ladyand it isn't right…
…and I've found him out。〃
〃That'll be a look…out for ME!〃 Mr。 Mudge joked。 〃You mean she has
a husband?〃
〃Never mind what she has! They're in awful danger; but his is the
worst; because he's in danger from her too。〃
〃Like me from youthe woman I love? If he's in the same funk as
me〃
〃He's in a worse one。 He's not only afraid of the ladyhe's
afraid of other things。〃
Mr。 Mudge selected another chocolate…cream。 〃Well; I'm only afraid
of one! But how in the world can you help this party?〃
〃I don't knowperhaps not at all。 But so long as there's a
chance〃
〃You won't come away?〃
〃No; you've got to wait for me。〃
Mr。 Mudge enjoyed what was in his mouth。 〃And what will he give
you?〃
〃Give me?〃
〃If you do help him。〃
〃Nothing。 Nothing in all the wide world。〃
〃Then what will he give ME?〃 Mr。 Mudge enquired。 〃I mean for
waiting。〃
The girl thought a moment; then she got up to walk。 〃He never
heard of you;〃 she replied。
〃You haven't mentioned me?〃
〃We never mention anything。 What I've told you is just what I've
found out。〃
Mr。 Mudge; who had remained on the bench; looked up at her; she
often preferred to be quiet when he proposed to walk; but now that
he seemed to wish to sit she had a desire to move。 〃But you
haven't told me what HE has found out。〃
She considered her lover。 〃He'd never find YOU; my dear!〃
Her lover; still on his seat; appealed to her in something of the
attitude in which she had last left Captain Everard; but the
impression was not the same。 〃Then where do I come in?〃
〃You don't come in at all。 That's just the beauty of it!〃and
with this she turned to mingle with the multitude collected round
the band。 Mr。 Mudge presently overtook her and drew her arm into
his own with a quiet force that expressed the serenity of
possession; in consonance with which it was only when they parted
for the night at her door that he referred again to what she had
told him。
〃Have you seen him since?〃
〃Since the night in the Park? No; not once。〃
〃Oh; what a cad!〃 said Mr。 Mudge。
CHAPTER XX
It was not till the end of October that she saw Captain Everard
again; and on that occasionthe only one of all the series on
which hindrance had been so utterno communication with him proved
possible。 She had made out even from the cage that it was a
charming golden day: a patch of hazy autumn sunlight lay across
the sanded floor and also; higher up; quickened into brightness a
row of ruddy bottled syrups。 Work was slack and the place in
general empty; the town; as they said in the cage; had not waked
up; and the feeling of the day likened itself to something than in
happier conditions she would have thought of romantically as Saint
Martin's summer。 The counter…clerk had gone to his dinner; she
herself was busy with arrears of postal jobs; in the midst of which
she became aware that Captain Everard had apparently been in the
shop a minute and that Mr。 Buckton had already seized him。
He had as usual half a dozen telegrams; and when he saw that she
saw him and their eyes met he gave; on bowing to her; an
exaggerated laugh in which she read a new consciousness。 It was a
confession of awkwardness; it seemed to tell her that of course he
knew he ought better to have kept his head; ought to have been
clever enough to wait; on some pretext; till he should have found
her free。 Mr。 Buckton was a long time with him; and her attention
was soon demanded by other visitors; so that nothing passed between
them but the fulness of their silence。 The look she took from him
was his greeting; and the other one a simple sign of the eyes sent
her before going out。 The only token they exchanged therefore was
his tacit assent to her wish that since they couldn't attempt a
certain frankness they should attempt nothing at all。 This was her
intense preference; she could be as still and cold as any one when
that was the sole solution。
Yet more than any contact hitherto achieved these counted instants
struck her as marking a step: they were built sojust in the mere
flashon the recognition of his now definitely knowing what it was
she would do for him。 The 〃anything; anything〃 she had uttered in
the Park went to and fro between them and under the poked…out china
that interposed。 It had all at last even put on the air of their
not needing now clumsily to manoeuvre to converse: their former
little postal make…believes; the intense implications of questions
and answers and change; had become in the light of the personal
fact; of their having had their moment; a possibility comparatively
poor。 It was as if they had met for all timeit exerted on their
being in presence again an influence so prodigious。 When she
watched herself; in the memory of that night; walk away from him as
if she were making an end; she found something too pitiful in the
primness of such a gait。 Hadn't she precisely established on the
part of each a consciousness that could end only with death?
It must be admitted that in spite of this brave margin an
irritation; after he had gone; remained with her; a sense that
presently became one with a still sharper hatred of Mr。 Buckton;
who; on her friend's withdrawal; had retired with the telegrams to
the sounder and left her the other work。 She knew indeed she
should have a chance to see them; when she would; on file; and she
was divided; as the day went on; between the two impressions of all
that was lost and all that was re…asserted。 What beset her above
all; and as she had almost never known it before; was the desire to
bound straight out; to overtake the autumn afternoon before it
passed away for ever and hurry off to the Park and perhaps be with
him there again on a bench。 It became for an hour a fantastic
vision with her that he might just have gone to sit and wait for
her。 She could almost hear him; through the tick of the sounder;
scatter with his stick; in his impatience; the fallen leaves of
October。 Why should such a vision seize her at this particular
moment with such a shake? There was a timefrom four to five
when she could have cried with happiness and rage。
Business quickened; it seemed; toward five; as if the town did wake
up; she had therefore more to do; and she went through it with
little sharp stampings and jerkings: she made the crisp postal…
orders fairly snap while she breathed to herself 〃It's the last
daythe last day!〃 The last day of what? She couldn't have told。
All she knew now was that if she WERE out of the cage she wouldn't
in the least have minded; this time; its not yet being dark。 She
would have gone straight toward Park Chambers and have hung about
there till no matter when。 She would have waited; stayed; rung;
asked; have gone in; sat on the stairs。 What the day was the last
of was probably; to her strained inner sense; the group of golden
ones; of any occasion for seeing the hazy sunshine s