mc.prey-第13部分

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ver　match　human　intelligence。　But　distributed　networks　of　agents　offered　an　entirely　new　approach。　And　the　programming　philosophy　was　new；　too。　The　old　rules…based　programming　was　〃top　down。〃　The　system　as　a　whole　was　given　rules　of　behavior。
　But　the　new　programming　was　〃bottom　up。〃　The　program　defined　the　behavior　of　individual　agents　at　the　lowest　structural　level。　But　the　behavior　of　the　system　as　a　whole　was　not　defined。　Instead；　the　behavior　of　the　system　emerged；　the　result　of　hundreds　of　small　interactions　occurring　at　a　lower　level。
　Because　the　system　was　not　programmed；　it　could　produce　surprising　results。　Results　never　anticipated　by　the　programmers。　That　was　why　they　could　seem　〃lifelike。〃　And　that　was　why　the　field　was　so　hot；　because…
　〃Jack。〃
　Annie　was　tapping　my　hand。　I　blinked。
　〃Jack；　did　you　hear　anything　I　just　said　to　you？〃
　〃Sorry。〃
　〃I　don't　have　your　full　attention；〃　she　said。　She　blew　cigarette　smoke　in　my　face。　〃Yes；　you're　right；　you're　in　a　hot　field。　But　that's　all　the　more　reason　to　worry　about　shelf　life。　It's　not　like　you're　an　electrical　engineer　specializing　in　optical…drive　mechanisms。　Hot　fields　move　fast。　Six　months　can　make　or　break　a　pany。〃
　〃I　know。〃
　〃You're　at　risk；　Jack。〃
　〃I　understand。〃
　〃So。　Will　you　talk　to　your　wife？　Please？〃
　〃Yes。〃
　〃Okay；〃　she　said。　〃Make　sure　you　do。　Because　otherwise；　I　can't　help　you。〃　She　flicked　her　burning　cigarette　into　the　remains　of　my　latte。　It　sizzled　and　died。　She　snapped　her　laptop　shut；　got　up；　and　left。
　I　put　a　call　in　to　Julia；　but　didn't　get　her。　I　left　voice　mail。　I　knew　it　was　a　waste　of　time　even　to　bring　up　moving　to　her。　She'd　certainly　say　no…especially　if　she　had　a　new　boyfriend。　But　Annie　was　right；　I　was　in　trouble。　I　had　to　do　something。　I　had　to　ask。　I　sat　at　my　desk　at　home；　turning　the　SSVT　box　in　my　hands；　trying　to　think　what　to　do。　I　had　another　hour　and　a　half　before　I　picked　up　the　kids。　I　really　wanted　to　talk　to　Julia。　I　decided　to　call　Julia　again　through　the　pany　switchboard；　to　see　if　they　could　track　her　down。　〃Xymos　Technology。〃
　〃Julia　Forman；　please。〃
　〃Please　hold。〃　Some　classical　music；　then　another　voice。　〃Ms。　Forman's　office。〃
　I　recognized　Carol；　her　assistant。　〃Carol；　it's　Jack。〃
　〃Oh；　hi；　Mr。　Forman。　How　are　you？〃
　〃I'm　fine；　thanks。〃
　〃Are　you　looking　for　Julia？〃
　〃Yes；　I　am。〃
　〃She's　in　Nevada　for　the　day；　at　the　fab　plant。　Shall　I　try　to　connect　you　there？〃
　〃Yes；　please。〃
　〃One　moment。〃
　I　was　put　on　hold。　For　quite　a　while。
　〃Mr。　Forman；　she's　in　a　meeting　for　the　next　hour。　I　expect　her　to　call　back　when　it　breaks　up。　Do　you　want　her　to　call　you？〃
　〃Yes；　please。〃
　〃Do　you　want　me　to　tell　her　anything？〃
　〃No；〃　I　said。　〃Just　ask　her　to　call。〃
　〃Okay；　Mr。　Forman。〃
　I　hung　up；　stared　into　space；　turning　the　SSVT　box。　She's　in　Nevada　for　the　day。　Julia　had　said　nothing　to　me　about　going　to　Nevada。　I　replayed　the　conversation　with　Carol　in　my　mind。　Had　Carol　sounded　unfortable？　Was　she　covering？　I　couldn't　be　sure。　I　couldn't　be　sure　of　anything　now。　I　stared　out　the　window　and　as　I　watched；　the　sprinklers　kicked　on；　shooting　up　cones　of　spray　all　over　the　lawn。　It　was　right　in　the　heat　of　midday；　the　wrong　time　to　water。　It　wasn't　supposed　to　happen。　The　sprinklers　had　been　fixed　just　the　other　day。　I　began　to　feel　depressed；　staring　at　the　water。　It　seemed　like　everything　was　wrong。　I　had　no　job；　my　wife　was　absent；　the　kids　were　a　pain；　I　felt　constantly　inadequate　dealing　with　them…and　now　the　fucking　sprinklers　weren't　working　right。　They　were　going　to　burn　out　the　fucking　lawn。
　And　then　the　baby　began　to　cry。
　I　waited　for　Julia　to　call；　but　she　never　did。　I　cut　up　chicken　breasts　into　strips　（the　trick　is　to　keep　them　cold；　almost　frozen）　for　dinner；　because　chicken　fingers　were　another　meal　they　never　argued　about。　I　got　out　rice　to　boil。　I　looked　at　the　carrots　in　the　fridge　and　decided　that　even　though　they　were　a　little　old；　I'd　still　use　them　tonight。　I　cut　my　finger　while　I　was　chopping　the　carrots。　It　wasn't　a　big　cut　but　it　bled　a　lot；　and　the　Band…Aid　didn't　stop　the　bleeding。　It　kept　bleeding　through　the　pad；　so　I　kept　putting　on　new　Band…Aids。　It　was　frustrating。
　Dinner　was　late　and　the　kids　were　cranky。　Eric　plained　loudly　that　my　chicken　fingers　were　gross；　that　McDonald's　were　way　better；　and　why　couldn't　we　have　those？　Nicole　tried　out　various　line　readings　for　her　play；　while　Eric　mimicked　her　under　his　breath。　The　baby　spit　up　every　mouthful　of　her　cereal　until　I　stopped　and　mixed　it　with　some　mashed　banana。　After　that；　she　ate　steadily。　I　don't　know　why　I　never　thought　to　do　that　before。　Amanda　was　getting　older；　and　she　didn't　want　the　bland　stuff　anymore。
　Eric　had　left　his　homework　at　school；　I　told　him　to　call　his　friends　for　the　assignment；　but　he　wouldn't。　Nicole　was　online　for　an　hour　with　her　friends；　I　kept　popping　into　her　room　and　telling　her　to　get　off　the　puter　until　her　homework　was　done；　and　she'd　say；　〃In　just　a　minute；　Dad。〃　The　baby　fussed；　and　it　took　a　long　time　for　me　to　get　her　down。　I　went　back　into　Nicole's　room　and　said；　〃Now；　damn　it！〃　Nicole　began　to　cry。　Eric　came　in　to　gloat。　I　asked　him　why　he　wasn't　in　bed。　He　saw　the　look　on　my　face；　and　scampered　away。　Sobbing；　Nicole　said　I　should　apologize　to　her。　I　said　she　should　have　done　what　I　told　her　to　do　twice　before。　She　went　into　the　bathroom　and　slammed　the　door。　From　his　room；　Eric　yelled；　〃I　can't　sleep　with　all　that　racket！〃
　I　yelled　back；　〃One　more　word　and　no　television　for　a　week！〃
　〃Not　fair！〃
　I　went　into　the　bedroom　and　turned　on　the　TV　to　watch　the　rest　of　the　game。　After　half　an　hour；　I　checked　on　the　kids。　The　baby　was　sleeping　peacefully。　Eric　was　asleep；　all　his　covers　thrown　off。　I　pulled　them　back　on　him。　Nicole　was　studying。　When　she　saw　me；　she　apologized。　I　gave　her　a　hug。
　I　went　back　into　the　bedroom；　and　watched　the　game　for　about　ten　minutes　before　I　fell　asleep。
　　
　DAY　5　
　7：10　A。M。
　When　I　awoke　in　the　morning；　I　saw　that　Julia's　side　of　the　bed　was　still　made　up；　her　pillow　uncreased。　She　hadn't　e　home　last　night　at　all。　I　checked　the　telephone　messages；　there　were　none。　Eric　wandered　in；　and　saw　the　bed。　〃Where's　Mom？〃
　〃I　don't　know；　son。〃
　〃Did　she　leave　already？〃
　〃I　guess　so　。。。〃
　He　stared　at　me；　and　then　at　the　unmade　bed。　And　he　walked　out　of　the　room。　He　wasn't　going　to　deal　with　it。
　But　I　was　beginning　to　think　I　had　to。　Maybe　I　should　even　talk　to　a　lawyer。　Except　in　my　mind；　there　was　something　irrevocable　about　talking　to　a　lawyer。　If　the　trouble　was　that　serious；　it　was　probably　fatal。　I　didn't　want　to　believe　my　marriage　was　over；　so　I　wanted　to　postpone　seeing　a　lawyer。
　That　was　when　I　decided　to　call　my　sister　in　San　Diego。　Ellen　is　a　clinical　psychologist；　she　has　a　practice　in　La　Jolla。　It　was　early　enough　that　I　figured　she　hadn't　gone　to　the　office　yet；　she　answered　the　phone　at　home。　She　sounded　surprised　I　had　called。　I　love　my　sister　but　we　are　very　different。　Anyway；　I　told　her　briefly　about　the　things　I'd　been　suspecting　about　Julia；　and　why。
　〃You're　saying　Julia　didn't　e　home　and　she　didn't　call？〃
　〃Right。〃
　〃Did　you　call　her？〃
　〃Not　yet。〃
　〃How　e？〃
　〃I　don't　know。〃
　〃Maybe　she　was　in　an　accident；　maybe　she's　hurt　。。。〃
　〃I　don't　think　so。〃
　〃Why　not？〃
　〃You　always　hear　if　there's　an　accident。　There's　no　accident。〃
　〃You　sound　upset；　Jack。〃
　〃I　don't　know。　Maybe。〃
　My　sister　was　silent　for　a　moment。　Then　she　said；　〃Jack；　you've　got　a　problem。　Why　aren't　you　doing　something？〃
　〃Like　what？〃
　〃Like　see　a　marriage　counselor。　Or　a　lawyer。〃
　〃Oh；　jeez。〃
　〃Don't　you　think　you　should？〃　she　asked。
　〃I　don't　know。　No。　Not　yet。〃
　〃Jack。　She　didn't　e　home　last　night　and　she　didn't　bother　to　call。　When　this　woman　drops　a　hint；　she　uses　a　bombsight。　How　much　clearer　do　you　need　it　to　be？〃
　〃I　don't　know。〃
　〃You're　saying　'I　don't　know'　a　lot。　Are　you　aware　of　that？〃
　〃I　guess　so。〃
　A　pause。　〃Jack；　are　you　all　right？〃
　〃I　don't　know。〃
　〃Do　you　want　me　to　e　up　for　a　couple　of　days？　Because　I　can；　no　problem。　I　was　supposed　to　go　out　of　town　with　my　boyfriend；　but　his　pany　just　got　bought。　So　I'm　available；　if　you　want　me　to　e　up。〃
　〃No。　It's　okay。〃
　〃You　sure？　I'm　worried　about　you。〃
　〃No；　no；〃　I　said。　〃You　don't　have　to　worry。〃
　〃Are　you　depressed？〃
　〃No。　Why？〃
　〃Sleeping　okay？　Exercising？〃
　〃Fair。　Not　really　exercising　that　much。〃
　〃Uh…huh。　Do　you　have　a　job　yet？〃
　〃No。〃
　〃Prospects？〃
　〃Not　really。　No。〃
　〃Jack；〃　she　said。　〃You　have　to　see　a　lawyer。〃
　〃Maybe　in　a　while。〃
　〃Jack。　What's　the　matter　with　you？　This　is　what　you've　told　me。　Your　wife　is　acting　cold　and　angry　toward　you。　She's　lying　to　you。　She's　acting　strange　with　the　kids。　She　doesn't　seem　to　care　about　her　family。　She's　angry　and　absent　a　lot。　It's　getting　worse。　You　think　she's　involved　with　someone　else。　Last　night；　she　doesn't　even　show　up　or　call。　And　you're　just　going　to　let　this　go　without　doing　anything？〃
　〃I　don't　know　what　to　do。〃
　〃I　told　you。　See　a　lawyer。〃
　〃You　think　so？〃
　〃You're　damn　right　I　think　so。〃
　〃I　don't　know　。。。〃
　She　sighed；　a　long　exasperated　hiss。　〃Jack。　Look。　I　know　you're　a　little　passive　at　times；　but…〃
　〃I'm　not　passive；〃　I　said。　And　I　added；　〃I　hate　it　when　you　shrink　me。〃
　〃Your　wife　is　screwing　around　on　you；　you　think　she's　building　a　case　to　take　the　kids　away　from　you；　and　you're　just　letting　it　happen。　I'd　say　that's　passive。〃
　〃What　am　I　supposed　to　do？〃
　〃I　told　you。〃　Another　exasperated　sigh。　〃Okay。　I'm　taking　a　couple　of　days　and　ing　up　to　see　you。〃
　〃Ellen…〃
　〃Don't　argue。　I'm　ing。　You　can　tell　Julia　I'm　going　to　help　out　with　the　kids。　I'll　be　up　there　this　afternoon。〃
　〃But…〃
　〃Don't　argue。〃
　And　she　got　off　the　phone。
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　I'm　not　passive。　I'm　thoughtful。　Ellen's　very　energetic；　her　personality's　perfect　for　a　psychologist；　because　she　loves　to　tell　people　what　to　do。　Frankly；　I　think　she's　pushy。　And　she　thinks　I'm　passive。
　This　is　Ellen's　idea　about　me。　That　I　went　to　Stanford　in　the　late　seventies；　and　studied　population　biology…a　purely　academic　field；　with　no　practical　application；　no　jobs　except　in　universities。　In　those　days　population　biology　was