sk.theshining-第17部分

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　　〃Sometimes；〃　Danny　said；　〃I　dream　when　I'm　awake。　After　Tony　es。〃　His　thumb　wanted　to　go　into　his　mouth　again。　He　had　never　told　anyone　but　Mommy　and　Daddy　about　Tony。　He　made　his　thumb…sucking　hand　go　back　into　his　lap。
　　〃Who's　Tony？〃　And　suddenly　Danny　had　one　of　those　flashes　of　understanding　that　frightened　him　most　of　all；　it　was　like　a　sudden　glimpse　of　some　inprehensible　machine　that　might　be　safe　or　might　be　deadly　dangerous。　He　was　too　young　to　know　which。
　　He　was　too　young　to　understand。
　　〃What's　wrong？〃　he　cried。　〃You're　asking　me　all　this　because　you're　worried；　aren't　you？　Why　are　you　worried　about　me？　Why　are　you　worried　about　us？〃　Hallorann　put　his　large　dark　hands　on　the　small　boy's　shoulders。　〃Stop；〃　he　said。　It's　probably　nothin。　But　if　it　is　somethin　。　。　。　well；　you've　got　a　large　thing　in　your　head；　Danny。　You'll　have　to　do　a　lot　of　growin　yet　before　you　catch　up　to　it；　I　guess。　You　got　to　be　brave　about　it。〃
　　〃But　I　don't　understand　thingsl〃　Danny　burst　out。　〃I　do　but　I　don't！　People　。
　　。　。　they　feel　things　and　I　feel　them；　but　I　don't　know　what　I'm　feeling！〃　He　looked　down　at　his　lap　wretchedly。　〃I　wish　I　could　read。　Sometimes　Tony　shows　me　signs　and　I　can　hardly　read　any　of　them。〃
　　〃Who's　Tony？〃　Hallorann　asked　again。
　　〃Mommy　and　Daddy　call　him　my　‘invisible　playmate；〃'　Danny　said；　reciting　the　words　carefully。　〃But　he's　really　real。　At　least；　I　think　he　is。　Sometimes；　when　I　try　real　hard　to　understand　things；　he　es。　He　says；　'Danny；　I　want　to　show　you　something。'　And　it's　like　I　pass　out。　Only　。　。　。　there　are　dreams；　like　you　said。〃　He　looked　at　Hallorann　and　swallowed。　〃They　used　to　be　nice。　But　now　。　。
　　。　I　can't　remember　the　word　for　dreams　that　scare　you　and　make　you　cry。〃
　　〃Nightmares？〃　Hallorann　asked。
　　〃Yes。　That's　right。　Nightmares。〃
　　〃About　this　place？　About　the　Overlook？〃　Danny　looked　down　at　his　thumb…sucking　hand　again。　〃Yes；〃　he　whispered。　Then　he　spoke　shrilly；　looking　up　into　Hallorann's　face：　〃But　I　can't　tell　my　daddy；　and　you　can't；　either！　He　has　to　have　this　job　because　it's　the　only　one　Uncle　Al　could　get　for　him　and　he　has　to　finish　his　play　or　he　might　start　doing　the　Bad　Thing　again　and　I　know　what　that　is；　it's　getting　drunk；　that's　what　it　is；　it's　when　he　used　to　always　be　drunk　and　that　was　a　Bad　Thing　to　do！〃　He　stopped；　on　the　verge　of　tears。
　　〃Shh；〃　Hallorann　said；　and　pulled　Danny's　face　against　the　rough　serge　of　his　jacket。　It　smelled　faintly　of　mothballs。　〃That's　all　right；　son。　And　if　that　thumb　likes　your　mouth；　let　it　go　where　it　wants。〃　But　his　face　was　troubled。
　　He　said：　〃What　you　got；　son；　I　call　it　shinin　on；　the　Bible　calls　it　having　visions；　and　there's　scientists　that　call　it　precognition。　I've　read　up　on　it；　son。　I've　studied　on　it。　They　all　mean　seeing　the　future。　Do　you　understand　that？〃　Danny　nodded　against　Hallorann's　coat。
　　〃I　remember　the　strongest　shine　I　ever　had　that　way　。　。　。　I'm　not　liable　to　forget。　It　was　1955。　I　was　still　in　the　Army　then；　stationed　overseas　in　West　Germany。　It　was　an　hour　before　supper；　and　I　was　standin　by　the　sink；　givin　one　of　the　KPs　hell　for　takin　too　much　of　the　potato　along　with　the　peel。　I　says；　'Here；　lemme　show　you　how　that's　done。'　He　held　out　the　potato　and　the　peeler　and　then　the　whole　kitchen　was　gone。　Bang；　just　like　that。　You　say　you　see　this　guy　Tony　before　。　。　。　before　you　have　dreams？〃　Danny　nodded。
　　Hallorann　put　an　arm　around　him。　〃With　me　it's　smellin　oranges。　All　that　afternoon　I'd　been　smellin　them　and　thinkin　nothin　of　it；　because　they　were　on　the　menu　for　that　nightwe　had　thirty　crates　of　Valencias。　Everybody　in　the　damn　kitchen　was　smellin　oranges　that　night。
　　〃For　a　minute　it　was　like　I　had　just　passed　out。　And　then　I　heard　an　explosion　and　saw　flames。　There　were　people　screaming。　Sirens。　And　I　heard　this　hissin　noise　that　could　only　be　steam。　Then　it　seemed　like　I　got　a　little　closer　to　whatever　it　was　and　I　saw　a　railroad　car　off　the　tracks　and　laying　on　its　side　with　Georgia　aced　South　Carolina　Railroad　written　on　it；　and　I　knew　like　a　flash　that　my　brother　Carl　was　on　that　train　and　it　jumped　the　tracks　and　Carl　was　dead。　Just　like　that。　Then　it　was　gone　and　here's　this　scared；　stupid　little　KP　in　front　of　me；　still　holdin　out　that　potato　and　the　peeler。　He　says；　'Are　you　okay；　Sarge？'　And　I　says；　‘No。　My　brother's　just　been　killed　down　in　Georgia'　And　when　I　finally　got　my　momma　on　the　overseas　telephone；　she　told　me　how　it　was。
　　〃But　see；　boy；　I　already　knew　how　it　was。〃　He　shook　his　head　slowly；　as　if　dismissing　the　memory；　and　looked　down　at　the　wide…eyed　boy。
　　〃But　the　thing　you　got　to　remember；　my　boy；　is　this：　Those　things　don't　always　e　true。　I　remember　just　four　years　ago　I　had　a　job　cookin　at　a　boys'　camp　up　in　Maine　on　Long　Lake。　So　I　am　sittin　by　the　boarding　gate　at　Logan　Airport　in　Boston；　just　waiting　to　get　on　my　flight；　and　I　start　to　smell　oranges。　For　the　first　time　in　maybe　five　years。　So　I　say　to　myself；　'My　God；　what's　in　on　this　crazy　late　show　now？'　and　I　got　down　to　the　bathroom　and　sat　on　one　of　the　toilets　to　be　private。　I　never　did　black　out；　but　I　started　to　get　this　feelin；　stronger　and　stronger；　that　my　plane　was　gonna　crash。　Then　the　feeling　went　away；　and　the　smell　of　oranges；　and　I　knew　it　was　over。　I　went　back　to　the　Delta　Airlines　desk　and　changed　my　flight　to　one　three　hours　later。　And　do　you　know　what　happened？〃
　　〃What？〃　Danny　whispered。
　　〃Nothin！〃　Hallorann　said；　and　laughed。　He　was　relieved　to　see　the　boy　smile　a　little；　too。　〃Not　one　single　thingl　That　old　plane　landed　right　on　time　and　without　a　single　bump　or　bruise。　So　you　see　。　。　。　sometimes　those　feelins　don't　e　to　anything。〃
　　〃Oh；〃　Danny　said。
　　〃Or　you　take　the　race　track。　I　go　a　lot；　and　I　usually　do　pretty　well。　I　stand　by　the　rail　when　they　go　by　the　starting　gate；　and　sometimes　I　get　a　little　shine　about　this　horse　or　that　one。　Usually　those　feelins　help　me　get　real　well。
　　I　always　tell　myself　that　someday　I'm　gonna　get　three　at　once　on　three　long　shots　and　make　enough　on　the　trifecta　to　retire　early。　It　ain't　happened　yet。
　　But　there's　plenty　of　times　I've　e　home　from　the　track　on　shank's　mare　instead　of　in　a　taxicab　with　my　wallet　swollen　up。　Nobody　shines　on　all　the　time；　except　maybe　for　God　up　in　heaven。〃
　　〃Yes；　sir；〃　Danny　said；　thinking　of　the　time　almost　a　year　ago　when　Tony　had　showed　him　a　new　baby　lying　in　a　crib　at　their　house　in　Stovington。　He　had　been　very　excited　about　that；　and　had　waited；　knowing　that　it　took　time；　but　there　had　been　no　new　baby。
　　〃Now　you　listen；〃　Hallorann　said；　and　took　both　of　Danny's　hands　in　his　own。
　　〃I've　had　some　bad　dreams　here；　and　I've　had　some　bad　feelins。　I've　worked　here　two　seasons　now　and　maybe　a　dozen　times　I've　had　。　。　。　well；　nightmares。　And　maybe　half　a　dozen　times　I've　thought　I've　seen　things。　No；　I　won't　say　what。　It　ain't　for　a　little　boy　like　you。　Just　nasty　things。　Once　it　had　something　to　do　with　those　damn　hedges　clipped　to　look　like　animals。　Another　time　there　was　a　maid；　Delores　Vickery　her　name　was；　and　she　had　a　little　shine　to　her；　but　I　don't　think　she　knew　it。　Mr。　Ullman　fired　her　。　。　。　do　you　know　what　that　is；　doc？〃
　　〃Yes；　sir；〃　Danny　said　candidly；　〃my　daddy　got　fired　from　his　teaching　job　and　that's　why　we're　in　Colorado；　I　guess。〃
　　〃Well；　Ullman　fired　her　on　account　of　her　saying　she'd　seen　something　in　one　of　the　rooms　where　。　。　。　well；　where　a　bad　thing　happened。　That　was　in　Room　217；　and　I　want　you　to　promise　me　you　won't　go　in　there；　Danny。　Not　all　winter。　Steer　right　clear。〃
　　〃All　right；〃　Danny　said。　〃Did　the　lady…the　maiden…did　she　ask　you　to　go　look？〃
　　〃Yes；　she　did。　And　there　was　a　bad　thing　there。　But　。　。　。　I　don't　think　it　was　a　bad　thing　that　could　hurt　anyone；　Danny；　that's　what　I'm　tryin　to　say。　People　who　shine　can　sometimes　see　things　that　are　gonna　happen；　and　I　think　sometimes　they　can　see　things　that　did　happen。　But　they're　just　like　pictures　in　a　book。
　　Did　you　ever　see　a　picture　in　a　book　that　scared　you；　Danny？〃
　　〃Yes；〃　he　said；　thinking　of　the　story　of　Bluebeard　and　the　picture　where　Bluebeard's　new　wife　opens　the　door　and　sees　all　the　heads。
　　〃But　you　knew　it　couldn't　hurt　you；　didn't　you？〃
　　〃Ye…ess。　。　。〃　Danny　said；　a　little　dubious。
　　〃Well；　that's　how　it　is　in　this　hotel。　I　don't　know　why；　but　it　seems　that　all　the　bad　things　that　ever　happened　here；　there's　little　pieces　of　those　things　still　layin　around　like　fingernail　clippins　or　the　boogers　that　somebody　nasty　just　wiped　under　a　chair。　I　don't　know　why　it　should　just　be　here；　there's　bad　goings…on　in　just　about　every　hotel　in　the　world；　I　guess；　and　I've　worked　in　a　lot　of　them　and　had　no　trouble。　Only　here。　But　Danny；　I　don't　think　those　things　can　hurt　anybody。〃　He　emphasized　each　word　in　the　sentence　with　a　mild　shake　of　the　boy's　shoulders。　〃So　if　you　should　see　something；　in　a　hallway　or　a　room　or　outside　by　those　hedges　。　。　。　just　look　the　other　way　and　when　you　look　back；　it'll　be　gone。　Are　you　diggin　me？〃
　　〃Yes；〃　Danny　said。　He　felt　much　better；　soothed。　He　got　up　on　his　knees；　kissed　Hallorann's　cheek；　and　gave　him　a　big　hard　hug。　Hallorann　hugged　him　back。
　　When　he　released　the　boy　he　asked：　〃Your　folks；　they　don't　shine；　do　they？〃
　　〃No；　I　don't　think　so。〃
　　〃I　tried　them　like　I　did　you；〃　Hallorann　said。　〃Your　momma　jumped　the　tiniest　bit。　I　think　all　mothers　shine　a　little；　you　know；　at　least　until　their　kids　grow　up　enough　to　watch　out　for　themselves。　Your　dad　。　。　。〃　Hallorann　paused　momentarily。　He　had　probed　at　the　boy's　father　and　he　just　didn't　know。　It　wasn't　like　meeting　someone　who　had　the　shine；　or　someone　who　definitely　did　not。　Poking　at　Danny's　father　had　been　。　。　。　strange；　as　if　Jack　Torrance　had　something…something…that　he　was　hiding。　Or　something　he　was　holding　in　so　deeply　submerged　in　himself　that　it　was　impossible　to　get　to。
　　〃I　don't　think　he　shines　at　all；〃　Hallorann　finished。　〃So　you　don't　worry　about　them。　You　just　take　care　of　you。　I　don't　think　there's　anything　here　that　can　hurt　you。　So　just　be　cool；　okay？〃
　　〃Okay。〃
　　〃Danny！　Hey；　doc！〃　Danny　looked　around。　〃That's　Mom。　She　wants　me。　I　have　to　go。〃
　　〃I　know　you　do；〃　Hallorann　said。　〃You　have　a　g