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　〃So　this　problem　goes　back　to　her　unhappy　childhood。〃
　〃Not　actually。　It　starts　off　well。　Ann　saw　herself　in　her　father　and　liked　what　she　saw；　and　her　father　saw　himself　in　his　daughter　and　was　equally　pleased。　In　fact；　Ann　described　to　me　a　happy　childhood　and　a　close　relationship　with　her　father。〃
　〃Then　it　went　bad？〃
　〃Yes。　It　has　to。　When　the　child　is　young；　the　child　wants　to　win　the　father's　approval。　The　father　sees　no　threat　to　his　dominance　and　thinks　of　the　son　or　daughter　as　a　chip　off　the　old　block；　to　use　an　expression。　But　by　adolescence；　they　both　begin　to　see　traits　in　the　other　that　they　don't　like。　The　irony　is　that　these　are　their　own　worst　traits；　but　people　cannot　be　objective　about　themselves。　Also；　they　begin　to　vie　for　dominance；　and　begin　to　voice　criticisms　of　the　other　person。　Since　neither　can　tolerate　criticism；　and　since　both　are　in　fact　probably　petent　and　high　achievers；　the　sparks　start　to　fly。〃
　〃Are　we　speaking　in　general　terms；〃　I　asked；　〃or　specifically　about　General　and　Captain　Campbell；　father　and　daughter？〃
　He　hesitated　a　moment；　probably　out　of　a　deeply　ingrained　habit　against　revealing　privileged　information。　He　said；　〃I　may　speak　in　generalities；　but　you　should　make　your　own　conclusions。〃
　〃Well；〃　I　replied；　〃if　Ms。　Sunhill　and　I　are　asking　specific　questions；　and　you're　giving　general　answers；　we　may　be　misled。　We're　a　little　dense。〃
　〃I　don't　think　so；　and　you　can't　fool　me　into　thinking　you　are。〃
　〃All　right；　down　to　cases。〃　I　said　to　him；　〃We　were　told　that　Ann　felt　she　was　in　petition　with　her　father；　realized　she　could　not　pete　in　that　world；　and　rather　than　opting　out；　she　began　a　campaign　of　sabotage　against　him。〃
　〃Who　told　you　that？〃
　〃I　got　it　from　someone　who　got　it　from　a　psychologist。〃
　〃Well；　the　psychologist　is　wrong。　An　obsessive…pulsive　personality　always　believes　they　can　pete　and　will　go　head…to…head　with　a　domineering　figure。〃
　〃So；　that　wasn't　the　actual　cause　of　Ann　Campbell's　hate　of　her　father？　They　didn't　mind　the　head…butting。〃
　〃Correct。　The　actual　reason　for　her　deep　hate　of　her　father　was　betrayal。〃
　〃Betrayal？〃
　〃Yes。　Ann　Campbell　would　not　develop　an　irrational　hate　of　her　father　because　of　rivalry；　jealousy；　or　feelings　of　inadequacy。　Despite　their　growing　petitiveness；　which　was　not　necessarily　bad；　she　in　fact　loved　her　father　very　much　right　up　until　the　point　he　betrayed　her。　And　that　betrayal　was　so　great；　so　total；　and　so　traumatic　that　it　nearly　destroyed　her。　The　man　she　loved；　admired；　and　trusted　above　all　others　betrayed　her　and　broke　her　heart。〃　He　added；　〃Is　that　specific　enough　for　you？〃
　After　a　few　seconds　of　silence；　Cynthia　leaned　forward　in　her　seat　and　asked；　〃How　did　he　betray　her？〃
　Moore　did　not　reply；　but　just　looked　at　us。
　Cynthia　asked；　〃Did　he　rape　her？〃
　Moore　shook　his　head。
　〃Then　what？〃
　Moore　replied；　〃It　really　doesn't　matter　what　specifically　it　was。　It　only　matters　to　the　subject　that　the　betrayal　was　total　and　unforgivable。〃
　I　said；　〃Colonel；　don't　fuck　with　us。　What　did　he　do　to　her？〃
　Moore　seemed　a　little　taken　aback；　then　recovered　and　said；　〃I　don't　know。〃
　Cynthia　pointed　out；　〃But　you　know　it　wasn't　rape　and　incest。〃
　〃Yes。　I　know　that　because　she　volunteered　that。　When　we　discussed　her　case；　she　only　referred　to　this　event　as　the　betrayal。〃
　〃So；〃　I　said　sarcastically；　〃it　may　be　that　he　forgot　to　buy　her　a　birthday　present。〃
　Colonel　Moore　looked　annoyed；　which　was　my　purpose　in　being　sarcastic。　He　said；　〃No；　Mr。　Brenner；　it's　not　usually　something　so　trivial。　But　you　can　understand；　I　hope；　that　when　you　love　and　trust　someone　unconditionally；　and　that　person　betrays　you　in　some　fundamental　and　premeditated　way…not　a　forgetful　or　thoughtless　way；　such　as　you　suggested；　but　in　a　profoundly　personal　and　self…serving　way…then　you　can　never　forgive　that　person。〃　He　added；　〃A　classic　example　is　a　loving　wife　who　idolizes　her　husband　and　discovers　he's　having　an　intense　affair　with　another　woman。〃
　Cynthia　and　I　thought　about　this　a　moment；　and　I　suppose　a　few　personal　thoughts　ran　through　our　minds；　and　neither　of　us　spoke。
　Finally；　Moore　said；　〃Here's　a　more　relevant　example　for　you：　An　adolescent　or　young　adult　female　loves　and　worships　her　father。　Then　one　day　she　overhears　him　speaking　to　one　of　his　friends　or　professional　associates；　and　the　father　says　of　his　daughter；　'Jane　is　a　very　weird　girl；　she's　a　stay…at…home；　hangs　around　me　too　much；　fantasizes　about　boys　but　is　never　going　to　have　a　date　because　she's　awkward　and　very　plain。　I　wish　she'd　get　out　of　the　house　once　in　a　while；　or　go　find　her　own　place　to　live。'　〃　He　looked　at　us。　〃Would　that　devastate　a　young　woman　who　idolized　her　father？　Would　that　break　her　heart？〃
　No　doubt　about　it。　It　broke　my　heart　hearing　it；　and　I'm　not　even　sensitive。　I　said；　〃Do　you　think　it　was　something　like　that？〃
　〃Perhaps。〃
　〃But　you　don't　know　what　it　was。　Why　wouldn't　she　tell　you？〃
　〃Often；　the　subject　can't　bear　to　discuss　it　because　to　tell　the　therapist　invites　judgment　or　evaluation；　which　is　not　what　the　subject　usually　wants。　The　subject　knows　that　the　betrayal　might　riot　seem　so　total　to　an　objective　listener。　Though　sometimes　the　betrayal　is　enormous　by　any　conventional　standards…such　as　incest。　It　wasn't　that；　but　I　believe　it　was　terrible　by　any　standards。〃
　I　nodded　as　though　I　were　following　all　of　this；　and　I　suppose　I　was。　But　the　question　remained；　and　I　asked　it。　〃Can　you　take　a　guess　at　what　it　was？〃
　〃No；　and　I　don't　have　to　know　what　her　father　did　to　her…I　had　only　to　know　that　he　did　it；　and　that　it　was　traumatic。　A　plete　breach　of　trust　after　which　nothing　was　ever　the　same　between　them。〃
　I　tried　to　apply　my　own　standards　to　this　statement；　but　I　couldn't。　In　my　job；　you　must　know　who；　what；　where；　when；　how；　and　why。　Maybe　Moore　knew　at　least　when；　so　I　asked　him；　〃When？　When　did　this　happen？〃
　He　replied；　〃About　ten　years　ago。〃
　〃She　was　at　West　Point　about　ten　years　ago。〃
　〃That's　correct。　It　happened　to　her　in　her　second　year　at　West　Point。〃
　〃I　see。〃
　Cynthia　asked；　〃And　when　did　she　begin　to　seek　revenge？　Not　immediately。〃
　〃No；　not　immediately。　She　went　through　the　expected　stages　of　shock；　denial；　then　feelings　of　depression；　and　finally　anger。　It　wasn't　until　about　six　years　ago　that　she　decided　she　had　to　seek　revenge　rather　than　try　to　cope　with　it。　She；　in　fact；　became　somewhat　unstable；　then　obsessed　with　her　theory　that　only　revenge　could　make　things　right。〃
　I　asked；　〃And　who　put　her　on　that　path？　You　or　Friedrich　Nietzsche？〃
　〃I　refuse　to　take　any　responsibility　for　her　campaign　against　her　father；　Mr。　Brenner。　As　a　professional；　I　did　my　job　by　listening。〃
　Cynthia　observed；　〃She　might　as　well　have　spoken　to　a　canary；　then。　Didn't　you　advise　her　that　this　was　destructive？〃
　〃Yes；　of　course。　Clinically；　she　was　doing　the　wrong　thing；　and　I　told　her　that。　But　I　never　promoted　it；　as　Mr。　Brenner　just　suggested。〃
　I　said；　〃If　her　campaign　of　revenge　had　been　directed　toward　you；　then　you'd　have　been　a　little　less　clinically　aloof。〃
　He　stared　at　me　and　said；　〃Understand；　please；　that　sometimes　the　subject　does　not　want　to　begin　the　healing　process　in　a　therapeutic　way；　but　wants　to　hold　the　grudge　and　settle　the　score　in　his　or　her　own　way；　usually　in　a　like　manner…you　betrayed　me；　I'll　betray　you。　You　seduced　my　wife；　I'll　seduce　your　wife。　Usually；　to　try　to　exact　a　revenge　that　is　similar　to　the　original　crime　is　not　realistic　or　possible。　Sometimes　it　is。　Conventional　psychology　will　say　that　this　is　not　healthy；　but　the　average　layperson　knows　that　revenge　can　be　cathartic　and　therapeutic。　The　problem　is　that　revenge　takes　its　own　mental　toll；　and　the　avenger　bees　the　persecutor。〃
　I　said　to　him；　〃I　understand　what　you're　saying；　Colonel　Moore；　though　I'm　wondering　why　you　persist　in　speaking　in　clinical　and　general　terms。　Is　that　your　way　of　distancing　yourself　from　this　tragedy？　Your　way　of　avoiding　any　personal　responsibility？〃
　He　didn't　like　that　at　all　and　replied；　〃I　resent　the　implication　that　I　failed　to　try　to　help　her；　or　that　I　encouraged　her　behavior。〃
　〃Resent　it　or　not；〃　I　informed　him；　〃it　seems　to　be　a　strong　suspicion　in　some　quarters。〃
　〃What　do　you　expect　from…〃　He　shrugged　and　said；　〃Neither　I；　nor　my　work　here；　nor　this　school；　nor　my　relationship　with　Ann　Campbell；　was　very　much　appreciated　or　understood　on　this　post。〃
　I　said；　〃I　can　relate　to　that。　You　know；　I've　seen　some　of　Captain　Campbell's　video　lectures；　and　I　think　you　people　are　performing　some　vital　functions。　But　maybe　you　were　straying　into　areas　that　made　people　nervous。〃
　〃Everything　we　do　here　is　sanctioned　by　higher　mand。〃
　〃I'm　glad　to　hear　that。　But　I　think　Ann　Campbell　took　some　of　it　out　of　the　classroom　and　tried　it　on　her　own　battlefield。〃
　Moore　didn't　respond　to　that。
　I　asked　him；　〃Do　you　know　why　Ann　Campbell　kept　files　of　therapy　sessions　with　criminals？　Sex　offenders？〃
　He　thought　a　moment；　then　replied；　〃I　don't　know　that　she　did。　But　if　she　did；　it　was　a　private　pursuit。　There's　hardly　a　psychologist　here　who　doesn't　have　an　outside　project　or　interest。　Most　times　it　has　something　to　do　with　a　Ph。D。　program。〃
　〃Sounds　reasonable。〃
　Cynthia　asked　him；　〃How　did　you　feel　about　her　having　sexual　relations　with　multiple　partners？〃
　He　didn't　reply　at　first；　then　said；　〃Well　。。。　I　。。。　Who　told　you　that？〃
　Cynthia　said；　〃Everybody　but　you。〃
　〃You　never　asked。〃
　〃I'm　asking　now。　How　did　you　personally　feel　about　her　having　sexual　relations　with　men　she　didn't　care　about　just　to　get　at　her　father？〃
　He　coughed　into　his　hand；　then　replied；　〃Well　。。。　I　thought　it　was　not　wise；　especially　for　the　reasons　she　was　doing　it…〃
　〃Were　you　jealous？〃
　〃Of　course　not。　I…〃
　Cynthia　interrupted　him　again。　〃Did　you　feel　betrayed？〃
　〃Certainly　not。　We　had　a　good；　platonic；　intellectual；　and　trusting　relationship。〃
　I　wanted　to　ask　him　if　that　included　staking　her　out　naked　on　the　ground；　but　I　had　to　know　why　he　did　it。　Actually；　I　thought　I　knew　why　now。　And；　beyond　finding　the　killer；　I　could　see　now；　based　on　what　Moore　had　said　so　far　about　betrayal；　that　Ann　Campbell's　life　and　unhappiness　needed　to　be　unders