lh.narcissusinchains-第82部分

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　I　took　his　hand　and　slid　it　down　the　front　of　my　satin　bottoms。　His　fingertips　found　the　wetness　that　had　soaked　through　the　satin；　and　I　didn't　have　to　guide　his　hand　anymore。　He　cupped　that　big　hand　of　his　over　my　groin；　and　the　cloth　was　soaked　through。　He　traced　fingertips　across　my　inner　thigh　and　the　skin　was　wet；　wet　down　to　my　knees。
　〃How　did　you　give　it　up？〃　My　voice　came　out　in　a　whisper。
　His　finger　slid　up　the　inside　of　my　thigh；　in　the　hollow　just　below。　He　leaned　in　to　kiss　me　as　his　finger　slid　slowly；　slowly；　upward　across　the　moist　skin；　under　the　wet　satin。　His　mouth　stayed　just　above　mine；　so　close　that　a　sharp　breath　would　have　made　us　touch。　He　spoke；　his　breath　warm　on　my　skin；　as　his　finger　caressed　the　edge　of　me。　〃No　amount　of　pleasure　was　worth　her　price。〃　Two　things　happened　at　once；　he　kissed　me；　and　his　finger　slid　inside　of　me。　I　screamed　against　his　mouth；　back　arching；　fingernails　digging　into　his　shoulder；　as　his　finger　found　that　small　spot　and　thrust　over　and　over　it；　until　he　brought　me　again。　The　world　had　soft；　white　edges；　like　seeing　through　gauze。
　I　felt　the　bed　move；　but　couldn't　focus；　couldn't　see；　wasn't　sure　I　cared　what　was　happening。　Hands　fumbled　at　my　shorts。　I　blinked　up　to　see　Richard　kneeling　over　me。　He　slid　my　shorts　down；　spread　my　legs；　and　knelt　between　them。　He　leaned　over　me　raising　the　satin　camisole；　baring　my　breasts。　He　ran　his　hands　across　them；　made　me　writhe；　then　moved　his　hands　down　the　line　of　my　body；　his　hands　gripping　my　thighs；　bringing　me　in　a　harsh　jerk　against　his　body。
　The　moment　he　rubbed　against　the　outside　of　me；　I　felt　the　rubbery　latex　of　the　condom。　I　looked　up　at　his　face；　and　asked；　〃How　did　you　know？〃　He　moved　so　that　his　lower　body　was　lying　between　my　legs；　but　still　pressed　against　the　outside　of　my　body。　Most　of　his　weight　was　supported　by　his　arms　like　a　modified　push…up　position。　〃Do　you　really　think　Jean…Claude　would　warn　me　about　the　ardeur　and　not　warn　me　that　you　weren't　on　birth　control？〃
　〃Good　point；〃　I　said。
　〃No；〃　he　said；　〃this　is。〃　I　felt　the　movement　of　his　hips；　seconds　before　he　thrust　inside　me；　in　one　powerful　motion　that　drove　sounds　from　my　mouth　somewhere　between　a　scream　and　a　shout。
　He　lowered　his　head　enough　to　see　my　face。　I　lay　gasping　under　him；　but　whatever　he　saw　there　reassured　him；　because　he　arched　his　back；　his　face　looking　somewhere　in　the　distance；　and　drew　himself　out　of　me；　slowly；　inch　by　inch；　until　I　made　small　noises。　He　drew　himself　out　until　he　was　barely　touching　inside　me。　I　gazed　down　the　length　of　my　body　to　see　him　stretched　hard　and　ready。　He'd　always　been　careful　of　me；　because　he　wasn't　small；　that　one　first　thrust　had　been　more　force　than　he'd　ever　before　allowed　himself。　He；　like　Micah；　filled　me　up；　hit　that　point　deep　inside　that　was　either　pain　or　pleasure。　I　saw　his　back　and　hips　flex　a　second　before　he　thrust　into　me。　I　watched　him　thrust　into　me；　saw　every　inch　of　him　plunge　into　me；　until　it　bowed　my　back；　my　neck；　and　I　couldn't　watch　because　I　was　writhing　underneath　him；　my　hands　scrambling　at　the　bedspread；　digging　fingers　into　the　covers。
　He　drew　himself　out　of　me　again；　and　I　stopped　him　with　a　hand　on　his　stomach。　〃Wait；　wait。〃　I　was　having　trouble　breathing。
　〃It's　not　hurting　you。　I　can　tell　by　your　face；　your　eyes；　your　body。〃
　I　swallowed；　took　a　shaky　breath；　and　said；　〃No；　it's　not　hurting　me。　It　feels　wonderful；　but　you've　always　been　so　careful；　even　when　I　asked　you　not　to　be。　What's　changed？〃
　He　looked　down　at　me；　his　hair　falling　around　his　face　like　a　silken　frame。　〃I　was　always　afraid　of　hurting　you　before。　But　I　felt　your　beast。〃
　〃I　haven't　changed　yet；　Richard；　we　don't　know　for　sure。〃
　〃Anita；〃　he　said　softly；　and　I　knew　he　was　chiding　me。　Maybe　it　was　a　case　of　the　lady　protesting　too　much；　but　still　。。。
　〃I'm　still　human；　Richard；　I　haven't　changed　yet。〃
　He　leaned　over　me；　his　hair　gliding　around　my　face　as　he　kissed　me　gently　on　the　cheek。　〃Even　before　the　first　full　moon；　we　can　take　more　damage。　The　change　has　already　begun；　Anita。〃
　I　pushed　against　his　chest　until　he　drew　back　enough　for　me　to　see　his　face。　〃You've　always　been　holding　back；　haven't　you？〃
　〃Yes；〃　he　said。
　I　searched　his　face　and　saw　such　need　in　his　eyes；　and　I　knew　why　he'd　been　so　angry　at　Gregory。　He'd　said　that　he　almost　regretted　not　making　me　his　lupa　in　truth；　now　that　he'd　seen　me　be　Nimir…Ra；　but　it　was　more　than　that。　I　looked　into　his　brown　eyes　in　the　spill　of　early　morning　light　and　knew　that　he'd　wanted　me　to　be　what　he　was；　even　though　he　hated　it；　that　at　some　level　he'd　been　tempted　to　make　me　his　lupa　for　real。　Somewhere　in　the　lovemaking　where　he　had　to　be　so　careful；　he'd　thought　of　it；　more　than　once。　It　was　there　in　eyes；　his　face。　He　started　to　look　away　as　if　he　could　feel　that　I　saw　it　all；　but　he　made　himself　look　back；　meet　my　gaze。　He　was　almost　defiant。
　〃How　careful　have　you　been　of　me；　Richard？〃
　He　did　look　away　then；　using　his　hair　as　a　shield。　I　reached　through　that　thick　hair　to　touch　his　face；　to　turn　him　to　look　at　me。　〃Richard；　how　careful　have　you　been　of　me？〃
　There　was　something　close　to　pain　in　his　eyes。　He　whispered；　〃Very。〃
　I　held　his　face　between　my　hands。　〃You　don't　have　to　be　careful　anymore。〃
　A　look　of　soft　wonderment　crossed　his　face；　and　he　bent　his　head　down；　and　we　kissed；　kissed　as　we　had　earlier；　propping；　exploring；　taking　turns　at　thrusting　into　each　other。　He　drew　slowly　back　from　the　kiss；　and　I　felt　the　tip　of　him　touch　my　opening。　I　stared　down　the　length　of　our　bodies　so　I　could　watch　as　his　body　flexed　above　me；　and　he　thrust　himself　inside　me　harder　this　time；　quicker。　It　brought　my　breath　in　a　soundless　scream。
　〃Anita　。。。　〃
　I　opened　my　eyes；　not　realizing　I'd　closed　them。　I　gazed　up　at　him。　〃Don't　be　careful　anymore；　Richard；　don't　be　careful。〃
　He　smiled；　gave　me　a　quick　kiss；　then　he　was　back；　arched　above　me；　and　this　time　he　didn't　stop。　He　thrust　every　inch　of　himself　into　me　as　hard　and　as　fast　as　he　could。　The　sound　of　flesh　into　flesh　became　a　constant　sound；　a　wet　hammering。　I　realized　it　hadn't　been　just　his　size　that　made　him　careful；　but　his　strength。　He　could　have　bench…pressed　the　bed　we　lay　on；　and　that　strength　lay　not　just　in　his　arms；　or　back；　but　in　his　legs；　his　thighs；　in　the　body　he　was　pressing　inside　me；　over　and　over　again。　For　the　first　time　ever；　I　began　to　appreciate　the　full　power　of　him。
　I'd　felt　the　strength　in　his　hands；　his　arms；　when　he　held　me；　but　it　was　nothing　to　this。　He　made　of　our　bodies　one　body；　one　pounding；　sweating；　soaking；　drenching　piece　of　flesh。　I　was　vaguely　aware　that　it　did　hurt；　that　I　was　bruising；　and　I　didn't　care。
　I　called　out　his　name　as　my　body　tightened　around　his；　squeezing；　and　I　spasmed　underneath　him；　body　slamming　against　the　bed；　not　from　Richard's　thrusts；　but　from　the　power　of　the　orgasm　itself；　screams　spilled　from　my　throat　as　my　body　rocked　underneath　him。　It　felt　good；　better　than　almost　anything；　but　it　was　almost　violence；　almost　pain；　almost　frightening。　Somewhere　in　the　midst　of　it　all　I　was　aware　that　he　came；　too。　He　screamed　my　name；　but　held　his　place；　while　I　continued　to　writhe　and　fight　underneath　him。　It　wasn't　until　I　lay　quiet　that　he　allowed　himself　to　collapse　on　top　of　me；　slightly　to　one　side；　so　my　face　wouldn't　be　pressed　into　his　chest。
　We　lay　in　a　sweating；　breathless　heap；　waiting　for　our　hearts　to　slow　enough　to　speak。　He　found　his　voice　first。　〃Thank　you；　thank　you　for　trusting　me。〃
　I　laughed。　〃You're　thanking　me。〃　I　raised　his　hand　to　my　mouth　and　kissed　the　palm；　then　rested　his　hand　against　my　face。　〃Trust　me；　Richard；　it　was　my　pleasure。〃
　He　laughed；　that　rich　throaty　sound　that　is　purely　male；　and　purely　sexual　〃We're　going　to　need　another　shower。〃
　〃Whichever　of　us　can　walk　first　can　have　the　first　shower；〃　I　said。
　He　laughed　and　hugged　me。　I　wasn't　even　sure　my　legs　would　work　enough　to　shower　at　all。　Maybe　a　bath。
　
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　I　WOKE　JUST　enough　to　feel　the　weight　of　someone　at　my　back。　I　snuggled　against　that　warmth；　wrapping　sleep　back　around　me。　An　arm　spilled　over　my　shoulder；　and　I　wriggled　into　the　circle　of　arm　and　body。　It　wasn't　the　warmth；　or　the　feel　of　him　that　woke　me；　the　wereleopards　had　gotten　me　used　to　all　that。　It　was　the　scent　of　his　skin。　By　the　scent　alone；　I　knew　it　was　Richard。　I　opened　my　eyes　and　snuggled　deeper　against　him；　curling　that　dark；　muscled　arm　tighter　around　my　body　like　drawing　a　cozy　blanket　around　me。　Of　course；　a　blanket　didn't　have　the　hard　weight　of　Richard；　or　the　silken　glide　of　his　naked　skin　against　mine；　or　the　ability　to　cuddle　back；　to　use　hands　to　pull　my　body　tighter　in　against　him。　He　closed　the　distance；　worked　until；　even　with　the　height　difference；　his　chest；　stomach；　and　hips　were　curled　around　me。　He　gave　one　last　movement；　and　I　could　feel　him　pressed　hard　and　ready　against　the　back　of　my　body。　It　was　morning；　he　was　male；　but　it　wasn't　something　embarrassing　to　be　ignored。　I　could　pay　as　much；　or　as　little；　attention　to　it　as　I　wanted；　and　I　wanted。
　I　started　to　roll　over　in　the　almost　tight　circle　of　his　body　and　found　I　was　stiff。　My　lower　body　felt　bruised；　aching；　but　in　a　good　way。　I　laughed　as　he　opened　his　arms　enough　for　me　to　roll　onto　my　back。
　〃What's　so　funny？〃　Richard　asked。
　I　stared　up　at　him；　still　laughing；　I　think　to　keep　from　groaning。　〃I'm　stiff。〃
　He　wiggled　his　eyebrows　at　me。　〃So　am　I。〃
　I　blushed；　and　he　kissed　my　nose；　then　my　mouth；　but　still　chaste；　still　not　really　sexual。　It　made　me　laugh。　If　it　had　been　anyone　but　me；　I'd　have　said　I　giggled。
　The　next　kiss　wasn't　chaste；　and　the　one　after　that　pressed　me　back　against　the　bed。　He　slid　his　leg　between　my　thighs；　until　his　knee　touched　me；　and　I　winced。
　He　drew　back。　〃Are　you　too　sore　for　this？〃
　〃I'm　willing　to　give　it　the　ol'　college　try；〃　I　said；　〃but　honestly；　maybe。〃
　He　stayed　propped　above　me；　fingers　moving　a　lock　of　my　hair　from　my　cheek。　〃What　I　did　last　night　would　have　broken　things　inside　an　ordinary　human。〃
　I　didn't　need　a　mirror　to　feel　my　eyes　go　cool。　I'd　really　been　trying　not　to　think　about　it。
　〃I'm　sorry；〃　he　said。　〃I　didn't　mean　to　ruin　the　mood。〃　He　smiled　s