rekindled(英文版)-第21部分
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real problem; is it? You do love him。〃
She blew out a breath; turning it into a sigh; and looked at the
ceiling。 〃I suppose。 But I can't marry him。 Being with him can only be
painful for both of us。〃
〃If he believed that; he wouldn't be asking to work with you。〃
She grunted。 〃So why did he call you?〃
〃He wants to retain us as consultants。 Did you actually say that you
refused him?〃
:;Yes。 He brought it up yesterday morning before he left。〃
〃But it's what we need; Chloe。 You mentioned trying to get corporate
work when we talked on Saturday。 The timing couldn't be better。〃
She eyed him sharply。 〃Did you say something to him while he was here?
Did you tell him we were looking for new business?〃 She didn't want
Ross's pity; or his charity。
〃I did not! For one thing; I didn't have a minute alone with the man
from the time I left here Friday night。 You monopolized him。〃
She snorted and looked away。 〃He's as sneaky as they e。〃
〃That's no way to talk about the man who loves you。〃
〃Lee; puleeze。〃
He held up a hand。 〃Okay。 I won't tease。 This isn't teasing stuff。 He'll
pay a monthly retainer as an advance on services rendered。 If we work
more; we bill him for the overage。 If we work less; we keep the
retainer。 It couldn't be better。〃
That didn't surprise Chloe。 Ross might be a rat; a snake; and a fox; but
he wasn't a thief。
〃The work is right up our alley;〃 Lee was saying。 〃The Hansen
Corporation is involved in dozens of different projects at any given
time。 There'd be variety and involvement in important issues…〃
〃You're right; Lee;〃 she cut in。 〃I can't argue。 The logic of this is
perfect。 By all means; accept his proposal; as long as you work with
him。〃 She said the last with a touch of venom。 She was being pushed into
a corner; and was striking out at the only person in sight。
〃He'd be hiring the firm; Chloe。 I might be working on one project; you
might be called for the next。〃
〃I don't think I can do that on a continuing basis。 It'd be too painful。
You can work for him。 I won't。〃
〃But your area of expertise is different from mine。〃
〃My mind is made up。〃
Surprisingly; there was little tension in the silence that followed。
Chloe wanted to think that her outburst had cleared the air。 At least;
she'd been honest。 Lee knew how she felt。
〃You know; Chloe;〃 he said; sitting straighter。 〃You were right the
other day when we talked。 I don't know everything about you…all those
little secrets you keep bottled up inside。 I didn't even know so many
existed until this business with Ross。〃 He grew beseechful。 〃But you
have to work out whatever it is that's bothering you。 Hell; you should
be with him; Chloe。 He loves you; you love him。 Do you have any idea how
many marriages are based on much less?〃 Lee had been married。 He knew
this firsthand。
〃But a man like Ross deserves more than I can give him。〃
Lee tossed a hand in the air。 〃That's a bunch of crap; and you know it。
If you want him; you can work out the kinks that hang you up。〃 He rose
and went to the window; stared out; turned back。 〃Damn it; Chloe; you
have so much going for you。 Are you going to sit back and let some great
mystery from the past ruin your future? I thought you were a doer! You
wouldn't be where you are today if you didn't believe in working for
what you believe in。〃
Chloe couldn't say a thing。 Lee had never talked to her this way before。
If another man had said what he had; she would have ignored him。 But she
couldn't ignore Lee。 She respected his opinion too much。
The horrified look on his face said that he hadn't planned the outburst。
He softened。 〃Hey; I'm sorry。 I came across a little too strong。〃 He
paused。 〃But I meant what I said。 Either you can let it continue to get
you down or you can fight it。〃 He thrust the long fingers of one hand
through his hair。 〃rich; I don't even know what it is。 But I believe
that you can overe whatever。 I don't know what you were before;
Chloe; but you're a strong woman now。 Don't let a good thing escape。〃
She smiled sadly。 〃You don't understand。〃
〃No。 I don't。〃 He sighed。 〃What say we drop it for a while?〃 At her nod;
he added a final thought。 〃But promise me that if you want to talk;
you'll e to me? I have broad shoulders。〃
She stood and gave him a hug。 〃Thanks; Lee。 I appreciate that。〃
Stepping back; she looked up at him。 Funny; he was warm and strong and
in his way as good…looking as Ross; but she felt no desire; no great
inner spark。
Lee held out a hand。 〃Friends?〃
She met his hand。 〃Friends。〃
〃And we'll accept the offer from Stephenson?〃
She yanked her hand back。 〃No。 Yes。 I don't know。〃 She strode toward the
door。 〃Do what you want!〃
How to go from high to low in seconds; she mused; as she returned to her
office and settled in at the desk。 Ross was forcing her hand; totally
determined。 What was it he had said about love being wanting and wanting
until one would do nearly anything?
She did have options。 She could stand firm and refuse to have anything
to do with Ross; send someone to New York in her place for the Rye Beach
negotiations; systematically shuttle retainer work to another member of
the firm。
Another option was more dangerous。 She could go to New York and do his
work; remaining neutral。 Did she have a chance in hell of doing that?
Lee's words returned with frightening clarity。 Did she love Ross enough
to fight herself…and her past…for him? Could she go back to New Orleans
and face the ghosts; finally put them to rest?
She hit emotional overload with that last thought。 Too much had happened
too fast。 She couldn't think about it anymore。 There was work to be
done…if she was to be enroute to New York by Wednesday。
With a long steadying breath; she sorted through the papers before her。
There were people to call; meetings to set up; reports to plan out
before she left; and the rush was for the best。 Her mind would be
filled。 Worrying was useless。 Only time would give her the answers she
needed。
Unfortunately; Ross wasn't as patient; but he received a different Chloe
on the phone that afternoon; a more subdued one。 She recognized his
voice immediately; had been half expecting to hear it。 Its sound sent a
ripple through her; but it died quickly。 She was exhausted。
〃How are you?〃 he asked。
〃I'm fine。〃
〃It's good to hear your voice。 I miss you。〃
〃You've been gone barely twenty…four hours。〃
〃You've been counting; have you?〃
She hadn't。 Well; maybe she had。 But she wasn't about to admit it。 〃I'm
counting now。 I have five different reports to go through this
afternoon; not to mention phone calls; proposals; and what…have…you。 It
seems I have a rush job in New York。 Some snotty executive thinks his
work is the only thing that counts。〃
〃I can see you got up on the wrong side of the bed。 Bad morning?〃
〃Busy。〃
〃Anything interesting?〃
〃Uh…huh。〃
He sighed。 〃Ah。 We're pulling teeth again。〃
〃No。 There's just nothing I feel like discussing。〃 With you; she might
have added。 He had intruded on her life far too much。
〃You sound down。〃 He sounded concerned。 〃Is something wrong?〃
〃I'll be fine。〃 But she wondered。 Much as she fought it; the sound of
Ross's voice affected her。
〃What is it; Chloe? Please tell me。 Something's bothering you。 I can
hear it in your voice。 Your spirit's gone。〃 He paused。 When she said
nothing; he said; 〃I'm driving up。〃
〃No! I'm okay。 Really。 I'm tired。 That's all。〃
:〃You have no idea what I feel when I hear that pain in your voice。〃
〃Then why did you do it?〃 she blurted out。
The silence was long and heavy。 Then he sighed。 〃You've; ah; figured out
my messages?〃
〃You could say that。 What I'd like to know is why you had to go behind
my back to box me in。 Why didn't you call me directly?〃
〃I mentioned it to you last weekend。 You refused。 I may be many things;
but I'm not a glutton for punishment。 That's your specially。〃 Chloe
gasped; but he went on。 〃I had no intention of calling you this morning
to rehash what I said yesterday。 There seemed to be more effective ways
of convincing you…〃
〃…forcing me 。。。〃
。。。 convincing you to work with me。 It makes good sense。 You're the
one familiar with the Rye Beach proposal and its problems。 To bring in
someone else would be a waste of time。 As for the other…〃
〃The other is Lee's affair;〃 she cut in。 〃He's handling any account with
the Hansen Corporation。 If you want to work with him; be my guest。 I can
vouch for his credentials and his skill; but I won't be involved。〃
〃Then why are you upset?〃 he asked a little too calmly。 〃If Lee will be
doing the dealing; it won't affect you。〃
〃Fat chance;〃 she murmured not quite softly enough。
Ah; ah; princess。 Let's have none of that。 If you're into soft
murmurings; use them to talk about love。〃
〃Ross。〃
〃I love you。〃
〃So you've said。〃 She tried to sound indifferent; but her tone was more
of a plea。
F 〃I mean it。 That's why I'm doing all this。〃
〃What?〃 she cried in a facetious show of emotion。 〃Don't you value my
brilliance; my experience; or my expertise in the field!〃
〃Depends on what field you're referring to;〃 he drawled。 〃In the field
of passion…〃
〃That wasn't the one I was talking about; and you know it。 Why do you
twist my words; Ross? Do you like upsetting me?〃
He was suddenly sober。 〃No。 I'm trying to good you into facing your
feelings。 I love you; Chloe。 I want to have you near me; so I
manipulated your cooperation。 You may not be ready to admit that you
need me as much as I need you; but I have no pride。 I need you; and I'm
not giving you up。 Not yet; at any rate。〃
Chloe listened sadly。 He sounded honest and sincere。 Maybe he did need
her。 But what about her needs? 〃You're rushing me; Ross。 I don't know
whether I'm ing or going。 Please; give me time?〃
〃You have till Wednesday。 I've made arrangements for you to take the
nine…fifty train from Providence。〃
〃The train? I'd rather drive。 It's more convenient。〃
〃I don't want you driving into the city。 Leave your car in Providence。
Your ticket will be held there for you and I'll be at the station
waiting。〃
〃Ross…〃
〃It's settled。〃
Her lips turned down。 〃That's what I like a